Zen Creative

This Creative Zen has been shown on our local tv for quite a while now.


Comei!

Tak pernah...

Tak pernah rasa macamnie. Sakit rasanya bila orang macam dah tak percaya dengan kita.

Sedih.

Kecik hati.

*sigh*



Oklah, nak balik..otak, minda dah penat.


Note: This certainly isn't a Fly-Day, heh.

Come!

Join me!

World Cup Germany 2006: Gol paling saspen

Italy vs Australia:



Totti, it is!

World Cup Germany 2006: Gol paling cantik

England vs Ecuador:



*Ignore the 'bahasa Jerman' commentary though, heh

Lazy Sunday...

Disturbed.

I know. I shouldn't be feeling this way. I don't know. Guess that i'm not over it. Like i thought i did.

But seeing his photo. And the new one is his life. It struck something in me. Like a Pandora's box. It opened. Letting out all the hurt, cheat and lies when we were together. One by one. Like a movie; it plays. Ripping my heart out. It feels like a knife went through my heart. Like it did before. All those old feelings came back to haunt me. Once again.

I know. I should not feel this way. I got him. I got his ring on my finger. And i could hear the bells ringing louder and louder. But still...

I keep asking myself what have i done to deserve that? He changed my life. Everything that i believe in. My beliefs and principals went down the drain when i was with him. Together with my self-confidence. And lots more.

And i never really got them back. I had to start from square one once again. Putting together the broken pieces were never easy. It was a slow, painful process. And it affect those people around me. They saw a different me now. Someone new. Someone's who was broken and hurt inside.

I have to get over this. Like she said. But give me more time, will you? I will get over this. Like i get over everything else. Insyallah...

*Note: This proves that internet world isn't so big either. He found me on friendster!

Letter To Angel

Today is the day. It's 21st June all over again. You would have been 2 today. Wish i could wish you a happy birthday, to kiss your cheeks. To feel you in my arms.

But i could never did. Will never would. You were lost. Gone. Forever.

Still, you remain a part of me. You have been a part of me. And will always be. I could never forget you, Angel. It had been such a short time. But i have loved you. You knew that, don't you?

You would have been 2 today. If you were a girl, you would have been a pretty little girl. And if you were a boy, you would have been the charming little boy. Would you have had dark brown eyes; just like mine? Or would you have had dark brown hair? Would your nose be as sharp as mine? You would have a beautiful smile, that's for sure. Cause you would and always will be my beauty little Angel.

I miss you, Angel. So much. 2 years have past and i'm moving on. I never talked about you that much anymore. But it's not because i have forgotten you. But it's because, even thinking about you hurts. It hurts so much sometimes.

I could imagine. At 2 now, you would have been babbling away. With those baby talk of yours. You would smiled and laugh with me. You would hold my hands tight when you walked that little steps. You would hold me tight, holding my fingers in your little hands. You would have looked at me with your dark, brown eyes. Your eyes would twinkle and shine. You would have been my loveliest Angel.

But it was never meant to be. I had to let you go. Even if i never wanted to. Even if my heart break into million pieces. I wanted you to be in my hands. To feel your warmth against my skin. To listen to your breathe in my ears. But i never could. Not then. Not now too. But i love you all the same.

Angel, i will always remember you. You would have been mine, the sweetest one. Even now when you were gone, you are always here. With me. In my heart, in my every breath. In my heartbeat. In my steps. You will always be with me.

I love you, Angel.

Happy Birthday, dear...May you be the sweetest Angel in that special place.


Al-Fatihah.

Your Daughter

Maybe my father isn't like yours. Nor you. Maybe we aren't that close. But nevertheless, he's still the father.

So not too late maybe, to wish A Happy Father's Day.

May you be strong and healthy always. Insyallah.

World Cup Germany 2006: Gol paling cool

Brazil vs Australia:

Jeritan Jiwa: Sahabat

World Cup Germany 2006 : Match paling drama

Italy vs USA:



22' : Gilardino score for Italy with a header

27' : Zaccardo scored his own goal when he tried to clear Reyna's (USA) free-kick *darn,darn, darn!*

28' : Italy's De Rossi was sent off for elbowing (*it looks unintenionally*) Brian McBride (USA)

42' : Mastroeni from USA was given the red card for lunging foul on Pirlo (Italy)

47' : The 3rd red card for USA when Pope was sent off.


Conclusion: Italy draw 1-1 with USA.

What a bummer, 9 orang pun tak boleh makan? Adehh, hampeh gue!


Source

Pujuk.

SMS,21:03, 15/06/06:

Kalau boleh...

Saya nak pos semua rindu saya kat awak...

Tapi tak boleh...

Sebab posmen kata...


Rindu saya BESAR sangat!!

**********

*grin*

World Cup Germany 2006 : Player paling frust

That's how Frank Lampard must have felt during the match against Trinidad & Tobago. He tried as he might; he might have more than 7 tries to put England ahead of Trinidad & Tobago. But no can do. All his tries were either being save by the goalie or it just went either way.

Thanks to Beck's cross at 83 mins for Crouch to make it 1-0. And Gerrard's score at 92 mins just secure the victory for England.

A sigh of relief there, heh. Rasa rugi kalau tengok bola tapi takde goal. Both sides play good soccer but maybe luck is just on England side?

Yang penting takde own goal this time, huhu!

More

Apahal?!

Read this:

Siaran Piala Dunia melalui RTM untuk penonton Malaysia sahaja

Oleh S. ANAND KUMAR


KUALA LUMPUR 13 Jun - Maaf ya peminat Piala Dunia dari Singapura! Siaran percuma perlawanan bola sepak melalui TV1 dan TV2 itu hanya untuk orang di Malaysia sahaja.

Itu adalah syarat yang terkandung dalam perjanjian stesen televisyen tempatan dengan Persekutuan Bolasepak Antarabangsa (FIFA).

Peminat bola sepak di Singapura semalam melahirkan kekecewaan kerana tidak dapat menonton temasya bola sepak itu melalui televisyen Malaysia kerana menerima gambar seperti `hujan' dan visual bergetar di skrin mereka.

Ketua Pengarah RTM, Datuk Abdul Rahman Hamid berkata, untuk memastikan syarat FIFA dipatuhi, RTM terpaksa mengubahsuai sistem pemancarnya bagi memastikan siaran itu tidak diperoleh oleh negara jiran.

``Kerajaan berbelanja banyak, maka kita mendapat hak penyiaran. Kalau peminat bola sepak Singapura mahu menonton secara langsung mereka juga perlu berbelanja, jangan hanya mahu tumpang sahaja.

‘‘Kita (RTM) perlu menghormati syarat FIFA. Jadi sehingga tamat perlawanan Piala Dunia kami terpaksa mengubahsuai sistem pemancar kami.

‘‘Soal sama ada siaran RTM boleh diterima di negara jiran atau tidak, itu bukan menjadi masalah kepada negara (Malaysia),” katanya kepada Utusan Malaysia hari ini.

Beliau berkata demikian sebagai mengulas laporan Bernama semalam yang memetik kekecewaan peminat bola sepak di republik itu yang kecewa tidak dapat menyaksikan siaran percuma itu.

Kata laporan itu, siaran RTM di Singapura bermasalah sejak bermulanya Piala Dunia pada Sabtu lalu.

StarHub, yang menyiarkan siaran RTM 1 secara percuma melalui rangkaian kabelnya di Singapura berkata, gangguan siaran itu berpunca daripada pihak penyiar di Malaysia.

Laporan media di republik itu turut menyebut bahawa RTM sengaja melaraskan sumber satelitnya supaya hanya penonton di Malaysia dapat menerima siaran perlawanan Piala Dunia melalui RTM1.

Mengulas lanjut, Abdul Rahman berkata, kerajaan membelanjakan RM11.5 juta untuk mendapatkan hak penyiaran secara langsung 47 perlawanan Piala Dunia.

‘‘Saya merasakan dalam perkara ini, adalah tidak logik sekiranya republik itu mempersalahkan RTM kerana siaran tidak jelas,” katanya.

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Read my email to Utusan in respond to above article:

Tuan/Puan yang di hormati,

Sila rujuk artikel di atas di sini yang di siarkan pada 13hb Jun.

Saya sebagai rakyat Spura berasa terkilan dengan artikel ini. Mungkin saya faham tentang kos yang terlibat untuk menayangkan perlawanan-perlawanan Piala Dunia 2006. Dan mungkin juga sebahagian dari rakyat Spura yang tidak mendaftar untuk untuk kabel Starhub telah menumpang siaran dari RTM untuk menonton perlawanan-perlawanan itu.

Tapi perlukah kata-kata kasar seperti di bawah di lontarkan kepada kami;

"Kalau peminat bola sepak Singapura mahu menonton secara langsung mereka juga perlu berbelanja, jangan hanya mahu tumpang sahaja".

''Soal sama ada siaran RTM boleh diterima di negara jiran atau tidak, itu bukan menjadi masalah kepada negara (Malaysia)," katanya kepada Utusan Malaysia hari ini.

Dan ini datangnya dari ketua pengarah RTM, Datuk Abdul Rahman Hamid. Seseorang yang berpangkat, yang mungkin di hormati dan di sanjungi.

Perkataan-perkataan begini tidak harus di lontarkan dan di siarkan sebagai bacaan orang ramai.

Rakyat Spura akan faham kalau itu sudah satu perjanjian dan syarat bersama FIFA. Dan satu penjelasan ringkas juga mungkin sudah memadai. Tak perlu berkata kasar seperti itu. Bukankah rakyat Malaysia di sanjung kerana budi pekertinya?

Dan merujuk kepada perenggan ini pula;

Laporan media di republik itu turut menyebut bahawa RTM sengaja melaraskan sumber satelitnya supaya hanya penonton di Malaysia dapat menerima siaran perlawanan Piala Dunia melalui RTM1.

''Saya merasakan dalam perkara ini, adalah tidak logik sekiranya republik itu mempersalahkan RTM kerana siaran tidak jelas," katanya.

Pada pandangan saya laporan media itu tidak menyalahkan RTM tapi hanya memperjelaskan keadaan bahawa masalah siaran berpunca dari RTM bukan dari pihak Starhub. Dan bukankah itu juga tindakan yang sedang RTM ambil?

Mungkin selepas ini, artikel ini patut saya sebarkan untuk menegah rakyat Spura dari menonton siaran perlawanan-perlawanan Piala Dunia kerana seperti di nyatakan dalam artikel ini - siaran Piala Dunia hanya untuk penonton Malaysia sahaja. Sebaiknya mereka harus sahaja beralih kepada siaran secara langsung kesemua perlawanan di saluran SCTV (siaran tv indonesia) yang menyiarkan semua perlawanan Piala Dunia dan tidak ada tohmahan-tohmahan seperti ini.

Saya harap pada masa akan datang,perkara-perkara ini tidak perlu ada atau di siarkan untuk bacaan orang ramai. Kita sebagai negara berjiran seharusnya lebih memahami antara satu sama lain. Tak perlu kata-kata yang mungkin akan mengeruhkan dan merumitkan keadaan.

Saya menulis ini sekadar menzahirkan rasa ketidak-puasan saya dan bukan untuk menjatuhkan mana-mana pihak.

Terima kasih atas perhatian anda.


Terima kasih.


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Not that my email will see the light off the day but at least i do my part. I voiced out my unhappiness over this article.

I'm sure swearing off RTM; at least for the World Cup 2006. Harsh words, indeed.

Heh.

Tomorrow.

And I wanna believe you,
When you tell me that it'll be ok,
Ya I try to believe you,
But I don't

When you say that it's gonna be,
It always turns out to be a different way,
I try to believe you,
Not today, today, today, today, today...


I don't know how I'll feel,
tomorrow, tomorrow,
I don't know what to say,
tomorrow, tomorrow
Is a different day

It's always been up to you,
It's turning around,
It's up to me,
I'm gonna do what I have to do,
just don't

Gimme a little time,
Leave me alone a little while,
Maybe it's not too late,
not today, today, today, today, today...

I don't know how I'll feel,
tomorrow, tomorrow,
I don't know what to say,
tomorrow, tomorrow
Is a different day

Hey yeah yeah, hey yeah yeah, and I know I'm not ready,
Hey yeah yeah, hey yeah yeah, maybe tomorrow

Hey yeah yeah, hey yeah yeah, and I know I'm not ready,
Hey yeah yeah, hey yeah yeah, maybe tomorrow

And I wanna believe you,
When you tell me that it'll be ok,
Yeah I try to believe you,
Not today, today, today, today, today...

Tomorrow it may change

Empty.

Life seems so empty these days
All around me are just spaces,
and more spaces

Waking up has lost it's meaning too
seeing the sun couldn't make me smile anymore,
remembering you don't give me the flutter anymore
even the night came without peace no more

I'm standing at the edge,looking down
I could jump
and let the blackness engulf me

Or i could stay
and wait for the sun to shine
to make me smile again
to let me hope again

Feeling.

Indifferent. That's how i feel these past 2 days.

It's like;

1)i don't care anymore.

2)nothing matters anymore.

3)couldn't care less.

4)i have given up fighting.

5)there's nothing more to wake up for. Or to even think about.

6)no dream will come true anymore.

7) and this is it. Nothing more, nothing less.


And this scare the shit out of me. I had felt this way before. And i know how things can go when i'm feeling this way. But deep down, i could feel that this is temporary. And it won't last long. That's what i keep telling myself at least.

For now, maybe i need to be on my own. Maybe it's those words. Or maybe i'm just giving up already. Or maybe...

Nothing matters anymore...?

*sigh*

Dysfunction

Family Dysfunction:

1) It nearly brought tears to my eyes when her mom hug and kissed both my cheeks before our departure to Australia last year. I have never forget that. My mom never did that to us. Or me, at least.

2) It's always "tak masak sebab takda orang nak makan". When 'takde orang' here only means my brother is working on the night shift.

3) My 2nd brother never visit that much anymore. And more sad, my little niece is growing further and further away from us. Sad *sigh*

4) I get extra sensitive and all riled up when others start talking about how different their families are from mine. (taulah kita 'takda' famili, but you don't have state the obvious kan?, isk!)

5) Closeness among families always, always hurt me the most - we never sit down together and talk like that. Never...

**********

Those words hurt like hell lah. I know maybe i blow things out of proportion. But still it hurts. So much.

*sigh*

**********

This post is not about 'buka pekung sendiri' but i need to get it off my chest.

This certainly feel bad.

Hmm..

**********

Sometimes, i thought i have gotten over this family-thingy. But think i will never get over it lah. This will stay with me for a lifetime.

*sigh*

Funny...

When the smallest things can hurt you the most, heh.

World and people works in mysterious ways eh?

*sigh*

Weirdo!

You Are 80% Weird

You're more than quirky, you're downright strange. But you're also strangely compelling, like a cult leader.

How Weird Are You?

From her.

4our

Since it's the World Cup 2006 and this blogger had put up such an entry, i decided to continue it like a meme; a World Cup meme. So let's get the ball rolling! (ball, World Cup..get it? heh!)

At this time, four years ago:

1) I was 25 (now that seems very young, didn't it?)

2) I was stuck in a non-existant relationship. I was crushed and broken. But pretty much in denial.

3) I followed each and every matches. With my grandad (missed him this World Cup as he is no longer around)

4) We got half a day off when Brazil and England match were held on the same day (went to club to watch the matches, coolest!)


As it was four all around, i decided to keep it as 4. You can add on it if you like :)

This time round, i have missed 2-3 matches already. Maybe age is catching up.

Heh.

World Cup 2006 : Tonite.

It's tonight! Let the games begin!

.....

The harder i try to get out, the deeper i got suck in.


Whylah.


I'm getting sick of this.

060606

Us
Originally uploaded by kiez-amy.

Happy Birthday kat AWAK. Moga panjang umur, murah rezki dan selalu happy.

Di kala dirimu tersenyum,
terhapuslah luka,
kerna engkaulah cahaya,
kasihmu membuat dunia jadi terbalik,
aturan menjadi tak bererti,
hukum dan hakikat menjadi satu

- E*uan,23:23,190406

Lucky.

He sure is!

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BUKAN sekali tetapi tiga kali.

Itulah bilangan undangan yang diterima Encik Abdul Aziz Abu Talib, 56 tahun, untuk menyaksikan pertandingan bola sepak Piala Dunia secara percuma.

Esok, beliau akan berangkat ke Jerman dan menghabiskan kira-kira enam minggu menyaksikan semua perlawanan - daripada acara pembukaan Jumaat ini sehinggalah pertandingan akhir pada 9 Julai.

Semua tiket itu diberi seorang pegawai bola sepak Arab Saudi, Encik Abdullah Al-Jabal, yang dikenalinya sejak 1970-an.

Encik Abdullah merupakan anggota kehormat Persekutuan Persatuan Bola Sepak Antarabangsa (Fifa) dan juga Persekutuan Bola Sepak Arab Saudi (SAFF).

Tiket khas Fifa itu turut diberikan kepada dua anak Encik Abdul Aziz - Abdullah, 19 tahun, dan Faisal, 17 tahun.

Encik Abdullah, anggota Perkhidmatan Negara, dan Faisal, penuntut sebuah kolej di London, akan menemui bapa mereka di Jerman selepas menyelesaikan urusan masing-masing.

Encik Abdul Aziz, pemilik kilang percetakan di Johor, sebelum ini pernah menerima tajaan serupa oleh SAFF untuk menyaksikan Piala Dunia di Perancis dalam 1998 dan Jepun-Korea dalam 2002.

Beliau memberitahu Berita Harian, persahabatannya dengan Encik Abdullah terjalin sewaktu Encik Abdullah me ngiringi pasukan bola sepak Saudi ke Singapura bagi Piala Lion City pada 1979.

'Ketika itu saya berkhidmat sebagai pegawai perhubungan dalam Jawatankuasa Antarabangsa dan Acara Khas, Persatuan Bola Sepak Singapura (FAS).

'Saya bantu mengatur segala keperluan logistik mereka. Sejak itu, setiap kali pasukan itu datang ke Singapura, saya menjadi orang hubungan mereka,' katanya.

Dihubungi dalam panggilan jauh semalam, Encik Abdullah, 53 tahun, yang kini di Jerman untuk membuat persiapan bagi pasukan Arab Saudi, berkata:

'Aziz memang seorang teman rapat dan setia yang telah banyak membantu pasukan Arab Saudi. Jadi saya langsung tidak keberatan memberinya tiket-tiket itu, yang diberikan kepada saya oleh Fifa.'

Selain tiket, yang dianggarkan bernilai antara 200 dengan 600 euro ($400 hingga $1,200) setiap satu, kos pengangkutan darat dan penginapan di hotel lima bintang Hilton Frankfurt turut ditaja.

Encik Abdul Aziz hanya membayar kos tiket penerbangan sebanyak $4,500 untuk tiga orang.

'Saya anggap diri saya amat beruntung. Saya akan berasa lebih gembira jika pasukan yang saya minati, Brazil, menang Piala Dunia!' ujarnya.

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Everything paid for. Some people are just so lucky, heh.



Source: Berita Harian

More?

This is a follow up to 4ord entry. So far the story goes like this:


It is a Friday - Me

My head is spinning - Ash

The weekend is coming - Gwendolyn Mat Piah



And..?

More comments needed, please *smile*

+1

Bisakah yang terpadam dinyala
Bisakah yang terhina dicinta
Walau ku himpunkan sesalku
Bisakah terbuka kalbu

Bisakah yang benci disayangi
Bisakah yang dusta dimaafi
Walauku himpunkan sesalku
Bisakah terbuka kalbu

Bila senduku berlinang sayu
Dalam rindu ku tertanya

Bisakah yang benci disayangi
Bisakah hatiku difahami
Walauku himpunkan sesalku
Bisakah terbuka kalbu

- Bisakah, Siti Nurhaliza

4 + 1

posts in 1 day, cayala!

Record-breaking betul, huhu..

Jumaat

Dari pagi tadi, memang hati aku rasa tak best. Cuba ok kan jugak. Cuba pujuk hati, apa yang aku buat ni betul. Tak apa lah kalau susah-susah sikit sekarang.

Tapi bila makin cepat waktu tu berlalu, perasaan aku bertambah tak suka. Jengkel rasanya. Cari macam-macam alasan dalam diri sendiri. Cuma timbangkan buruk dan baiknya. Tapi lebih pada cari silap keputusan yang di buat sejak beberapa hari lalu. Makin nampak kekurangannya.

Call mak. Cakap dengan mak. Memang rasa lagi tepat lah apa yang rasanya nak buat sekarang ni. Pilihan aku beberapa hari lalu memang tak tepat.

Surf internet. Cari alternatif. Tanya kawan sorang tu. Hantar emel sana, sini. Rasa-rasanya boleh dapat yang lebih berbaloi dari sekarang kot. Insyallah.

Rasa-rasanya dah boleh fikir yang mana patut di buat. Baru rasa lega hati ni. Baru rasa senang sikit nak bernafas.

Mungkin memang betul apa yang aku rasa aku nak buat sekarang ni.

Alhamdulillah.


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Salah ke kalau buat macamtu? Sebab aku ada prinsip dan undang-undang aku sendiri. Walaupun mungkin tak menyenangkan satu pihak, tapi mungkin akan lebih memporak-peranda kan banyak pihak kalau fikir nak buat ikut kepala sendiri je. Salah ke kalau tak buat seperti yang orang lain nak kita buat. Sedangkan kita ada alasan dan sebab tersendiri. Yang dah pun bagitau. Kalau tak faham juga, tak taulah.

Rasa serba salah. I can't be anyone else. That's me. Memanglah nampak macam bodoh, macam lemah. Tapi..ntah, tak boleh nak paksa diri lagi. Dah sampai the line where i should limit myself already. That's so much that someone can do. Kan?

Rasa tak adil plak bila kena paksa2 macamnie. Cuba saya paksa awak, suka ke? Hmm...

Itu saya. Dan untuk masa sekarang; esok, lusa, bulan depan atau pun tahun depan belum tentu saya boleh berubah. Atau pun saya tak akan ubah sampai bila2. Macam ketagih rokok lah. Boleh berhenti ke kalau suruh jam2 tu jugak berhenti? Samalah kan?

Sedihlah bila orang tak faham. Tak tau apa motif buat camtu. Tak apalah kot, biar orang nak marah. Dia tak faham. Dia tak faham apa yang cuba aku buat. Aku ada tanggungjawab. Dan prinsip aku; kalau nak buat salah apa2 pun jangan sampai libatkan orang tua. Diaorang tanggungjawab aku. Buruk baik, diaorang tetap mak bapak aku.

Kau tak faham. Dan tak mungkin faham.

Inilah aku. Yang sebenarnya.

Yang 'tak boleh di harap', dia kata. *sigh*


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The Question Is

Should I or should i not?

Which would you prefer;

1 arranging books on bookshelves, pushing book carts around

2 cashier position in a gas-pump station, handling cash/credit cards transactions. Which also involves lots of cards swiping (from a few diff terminals), stock checking and recons at the end of your shift.

To take into consideration;

Location 1) just across the building from where i work

Location 2) take a train, 3 station away + 5-10 mins walk. Journey back will include either 2 bus rides or 1 bus ride + 1 train ride 7 stations away.

Both have the same pay rate.

Cepat, i need to know before 6pm. Help me out here, will you?


//updated @ 6.07pm

Books vs Pump Station: 4 votes (2 Y!M) votes to nil. Books win hands-down. Heh.

I have submited my application. Let's just wait for that call, shall we? *keeping my fingers cross*

Thank YOU for the voters!

//

4ord

This game goes like this. But this time, what you do is you post a comment containing only 4 WORDS in reply to the previous one. So it'll sound like a story as the comments goes by.

I shall begin, - It is a Friday.


Now you continue...

Astaga!

1 Don't know where my previous template went to!

2 Feel like i kena conned for a few hundreds! Adeh!

3 End up having a misunderstanding with him. *sigh*

4 This certainly doesn't feels like Friday anymore. Shucks!


Rasanya semua orang ada satu red-tape/limit for themselves kan? Yang no matter how hard they try; they couldn't never get over it. The fear of it. Macam fear-factor lah, heh. And that's where i'm now. Dekat nak sampai limit tu. So don't push me any further lah or you'll break me. Tak ada orang faham, ingat suka2 ke ada limit2 macam tu. Isk!

It's brick all around..

Kellie's Castle
Originally uploaded by kiez-amy.

Life certainly sucks when you need others to even just breathe. It's like nothing is certain anymore. If things turn out as promised, fine. But what if it's not? Not when you have already made other plans around that supposed plan.

It certainly suckslah! And i hate living this way!


p/s:Howlah to get positive with all these negative vibes going all around you? One moment, i could be all happy and light. The next, everything just bog me down.

*frown, frown, frown*

So done!

Tukar template lagi, heh. The last one makes me all down and moody.

So..feels much, much better today. Semalam, rasa macam dah patah semangat. Nak give up. Feels like there's nothing to look forward to anymore. Things are going down the drain already. And I have not plan for a downfall, this way!

But today, things are looking up. At least, even if things are not going my way,at least they are moving. And hopefully, with whatever time i'm given now i managed to get it all together. Again. The way i want it to be.

I'm determined to make this happens. I want it to happen. And i'm certainly more than willing to give whatever i have.

Hari ni terbakar balik semangat yang hampir nak padam semalam. I will survived this. Like i always did.

Insyallah.

Excuse me for the bahasa rojak, heh.