Where were you...

Friday. Started off badly. Disaster. Foul speech were thrown back and forth. Voices raised to decibels like never before. Anger reared it's ugly, ugly head.

Saturday. All peace and quiet. Anger was still in the menu. But were spoken in whispers and hush tones. Smiles and laughters were soon heard. Words were spoken right from the heart. Love is the language.


I could hear the bells ringing. From a distance. Faint. But sure.

A Thousand Words...

It feels good. And bad, at times. Sometimes it feels so right. And at times, it could feel so wrong.

It really takes lots of effort to make this work. It's not just a 'plug and play'.

But at the end of the day, this will be all worthwhile. To belong together. To each other.

Forever.

zahir kau lihat bukan segala-gala
bibir tersenyum menutup jiwa yang luka
zahir kau lihat hanya antara lapis
mataku sinar bergenang tangis

memang nasib bercinta
kerap terhenti disimpang hidup dan cahaya
kekasih yang setia
kekasih yang amat sempurna cintanya

demi cinta yang benar……
- Dunia Batinku (Ella & Tam 'Spider')

Bleak...

Maybe it's never meant to be..
maybe it's just a journey,
never a destination...

How would you feel when you can't dream no more,
when you have nothing more to dream of,
what will you wake up in the morning for,
what to keep you motivate throughout the days...

I'm tired...
of being putting every right to a wrong,
of satisfying every needs that come along,
of putting myself down when it crystal clear that none was my fault...

So,
i'm putting myself before everything else,
for this once..
i've put aside my love for you...
it's now time for you to prove those words to me...

Before losing me once again,
and this time it's going to be forever...

It's all over now...

With preparations for Raya now over and done with; with the arrival of Syawal, time to focus on other issues that now required my overdue attention. But like her, some facts before/during/after Raya:

being the 'lone' hostees (with both my parents working during Raya), i'm now so broke! Huhu..tapi takperlah, rezki budak-budak ye dak?

gue ada lain boyfriend for last Raya and this Raya *grin*

i nearly got matchmade to my childhood friend. Adehh...

i will always be in charge of the 'accounts' for Raya expenses since both my brothers got married (me and my smart mouth - always volunteering to buy this and that. Last2 jerat diri sendiri lah!)

Dodge the 'ever-ultimate-question-of-the-year' twice (one was answered with a grin and another was replied with 'tunggu Sultan Brunei pinang!" - hahah..) Fuhh..

it's now November. And December looms ahead; where all questions will be answered.

our lives are indeed getting shorter. What with accidents, and people dying of cancer had become the norm (keep hearing news of passing caused by cancer). So learn to appreciate those that we love, shall we? Coz, we never know **Kal Ho Naa Ho (nie akibat tengok hindustan sampai 2 pagi malam tadi, huhu..)

There might be more later. Or none.


_{**Kal Ho Naa Ho - Tomorrow May Never Come}