Losing something i never had...

It's still a loss when you lost something which you have never had?

The loss felt harder when i saw what i have missed out all this while. What i should be feeling but i never did.

She never kissed my cheeks.

She never sent me off.

We never eat together.

We never sit together.

We don't joke and laugh like that.


It's sad, yes.

And i want this to stop here. Stop with me. Never will they feel this way, the way i feel.

I want them to feel loved. Not once will they feel deprived. Not one minute in their life.

Not like how i'm feeling now. So deprived. So un-loved.

*sigh*