73 Days...

'Ya Allah, Kau kekalkanlah jodoh kami hingga ke jinjang pelamin,
dan hingga kami di satukan dengan ijab dan kabul,
lalu di kekalkan jodoh kami hingga ke pintu syurga..

Ya Allah, Kau tenangkan perasaanku,
Kau redakanlah gelora ini,
Kau halau jauh segala curigaku,
Kau semaikan rasa percaya ke dalam hatiku...

Ya Allah, Kau lindungilah kami berdua,
Kau jauhkan segala malapetaka,
Kau hindarkanlah segala masalah,
Kau jauhkanlah segala gangguan...

Ya Allah, Kau mudahkanlah perjalanan kami,
sebelum kami di satukan,
Kau lindungilah kami di bawah lindunganMu..
Kau mudahkanlah rezki kami...
Kau kekalkanlah jodoh kami,
selama-lamanya...'

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I don't know..i have been feeling down lately. Not sure, if it's the cold feet (but is it too early for cold feet..?) or the stress or..i, myself isn't too sure anymore. I don't even know what trigger this kind of bad feeling. I just have 1001 questions and doubts thrown at me. I feel insure, feel like i'm losing everything. But i just couldn't put a finger to it; not sure what's happening to myself and my thoughts.

Hope, i'm not going crazy. Heh. It's just that what i'm feeling had a bad vibe to the people around me. And especially him. Hope this is temporary. And it's just the cold feet and stress taking over me.

Hopefully this is going to be over. Soon.