29 Going 30

2007: New

2007-02-07T21:42:00.000+08:00

Everything. Life. Phase. Everyday. Each passing hours and seconds. Him.

But i do realise. I miss...

The old life. The old me. The old friends.

But nothing can compare to this. Nothing.

And i miss writing too...

So i guess, this blog will stays open. Maybe..i will move on somewhere. Maybe..i will still update; once in a while. Maybe, maybe..life is full of it eh?

Anyway, here's wishing you have the best year ahead. Too late, i know. But better than never eh..?

Wahai Insan Teratas Dalam Hidupku...

2006-12-30T00:29:00.000+08:00

Kadang-kadang kita mungkin tak sedar...

Dalam tak sengaja, perbuatan kita melukakan...

Mungkin tidak di sengajakan...

Tapi, tetap ada hati yang terasa...

Diamku, sebab ada hati yang terasa...
Gundahku, sebab ada jiwa yang terusik...
Tangisku, sebab tiada kata yang boleh ku luahkan...
Kerana taat dan sumpah ku padamu..

Namun, fahamilah wahai insan teratas dalam hidupku,
sesungguhnya aku sedang berkecil hati...

Nota: Isteri tu bukan hak milik, tapi anugerah... - Cinta

The Wedding

2006-12-15T11:48:00.000+08:00

This was what had me occuppied for these past months, heh.

For more, click here

7 Hari

2006-12-06T14:51:00.000+08:00

Tinggal seminggu je lagi...

Ini permintaan saya...

Sayangilah saya lebih dari orang lain

Cintailah saya seperti tak pernah kamu cintai

Dahuluilah diri saya sebelum yang lain

Jagalah hati saya seperti kamu menjaga nyawa kamu sendiri

Lindungilah saya seperti kamu menjaga diri kamu sendiri

Jujurlah dengan saya seperti kamu jujur dengan diri kamu sendiri

Hargailah cinta saya yang tak mungkin ada galang gantinya lagi...

Itu je yang saya minta...

Hurt...

2006-11-13T22:18:00.000+08:00

Nota kaki: Jangan hirau sangat benda2 nie. Ni luahan orang yang penat, stress, tensen dan sangat2 kekurangan tidur. Heh.

I'm up to my ears!

2006-10-28T21:53:00.000+08:00

Since my last proper update;

1 There had only 2 updates. Tu pun tak kira updates lah kan. Cam luahan perasaan, heh.

2 I got a new job (again!). And this is a pretty, interesting job. New line, new challenges for me.

3 My most miserable malam raya ever. Nangis sampai bengkak2 mata, huhu. Tak taulah awat emo sangat malam tu, heh. (But i'm all good now).

4 Counting the days till The Big Day. Cepatlah, cepat..huhu..

5 About the new job? I'm up to my ears. Busy sangat-sangat. Tapi best! Heh.

6 Something happened. Something that i never thought could happened to me. To us. And that gave us a big scare. Never, never would i walk down that path again. Never, janji!

7 Raya kali ni, dah dapat soalan lain instead of the usual,"Kau bila lagi..?" Now it's,"Berapa haribulan..?" Heheh..

8 Preparation dah kena expedite. Bak kata mak pengantin,"Masa berjalan." Huhu..

9 I'm always worn out at the end of the workday. Penat weii kerja jauh-jauh nie...

10 Adjusting to new work week that starts on Friday and ends on Tuesday. It feels weird, yes. Tapi best gaklah, sebab kita cuti bila orang lain semua kerja..huhu. Cuma yang tak bestnya, kita kerja Sabtu dan Ahad, uhuk3x.

11 It's been a long, long while since i catch on all the blogs listed on my site. Kat ofis, memang takde time. Nak chat pun susah.

12 47 days more to go, ahaks.

So maybe till another update? *Blog ni dah ada ciri-ciri kena virus 'orang nak tinggalkan zaman bujang' kan? Huhu...silap-silap kena tutup.*

Heh.

Syahdu... (di malam raya)

2006-10-24T00:03:00.000+08:00

Andai dapat kau dengar,
apa yang tidak aku katakan...

Andai dapat kau lihat,
tangisan yang mengalir di sebalik tawaku itu...

Andai dapat kau hidu,
rajukku di sebalik gurauanku itu...

Pasti kau kan tau,
betapa hati ku sudah jauh terluka,
yang mungkin akan sembuh,
tapi parutnya akan tinggal,
menjadi ingatan...

Thought I have gotten throught the worst,
and nothing could hurt me anymore than what i've been through...

Thought that was the worse,
but this certainly is much more worse...

It's like watching your heart being ripped out from you..

It's like running a dagger through your heart...

While you are still wide awake, to feel each and every pain...

It's like...
Killing me softly...

*sigh*

Kalau...

2006-10-17T10:54:00.000+08:00

Kalau hati sudah terasa,
bagaimana bibir hendak berbicara..

Jeritan Jiwa: Satu

2006-10-12T19:20:00.000+08:00

Gangguan yang teramat..

2006-10-12T17:03:00.000+08:00

kalaulah aku boleh lari dari semua gangguan ni...

Akan ku lari ke ujung dunia...

Jeritan Jiwa: Satu

2006-10-11T22:32:00.000+08:00

I need sleep.

2006-10-08T23:19:00.000+08:00

One word for the weekend - eventful. And if i can add one more to it, tiring. Really tiring.

But..

Relief. That's what i'm feeling now. Things are beginning to fall into places. Maybe some things are not what i expected. And they happened; but not in the way i wanted them to be. But you got to compromise, don't you? Tak semua yang kita nak, kita dapat kan? I believe what happen is for the best.

We have taken another step further. Nearer. Being there, at the place. Just took my breathe away. I've been there before. But it's always for that cousin, for that relative, for my siblings. But this time, it's for me. For us. And it's just exhilirating. I have butterflies in my stomach while waiting. I even had to take deep breath at times; to calm myself. Heh.

Place. We had even got a place to stay. It may not be what i expected (like i mentioned earlier, lots of things are happening but not in a way i want them to be. But at least, it's happening. So, i take comfort in that). As the place was not fully-furnished,lots need to be done for the house. So this Wedding Registry isn't a big joke now, take note people! *grin*

House, done. The interview, went well. What's next? There's still those details to take care of. But at least, things are clearer now. Alhamdulillah.

What else..owh, yeah. I'm beginning at a new place tomorrow. With a new image to suit me, huhu...So wish me good luck, yeah?

Another thing; *hearing Siti's Airmata Syawal* just remind me how much i'll miss my family during the next Ramadan and Syawal. Things won't be the same anymore, will they..? But guess, that's life. Things change. People change. Lagipun, bukan jauh sangat pun kan..? (ayat pujuk, heh..) But believe it or not, i'm already missing my mom. *sigh* This is the last for everything, it seems - last Ramadan, last Raya, last fitrah my dad is paying for me, heh. Sebak weii..

Him. It feels more harder being apart these days. He feel it too, it's written all over his face when the bus he's on started to leave. No matter how much time we spent together, it's never enough. I don't know how to describe this feeling, but it's certainly harder to let him go now. But 66 days won't be that long-wait, won't it?

73 Days...

2006-10-01T23:30:00.000+08:00

'Ya Allah, Kau kekalkanlah jodoh kami hingga ke jinjang pelamin,
dan hingga kami di satukan dengan ijab dan kabul,
lalu di kekalkan jodoh kami hingga ke pintu syurga..

Ya Allah, Kau tenangkan perasaanku,
Kau redakanlah gelora ini,
Kau halau jauh segala curigaku,
Kau semaikan rasa percaya ke dalam hatiku...

Ya Allah, Kau lindungilah kami berdua,
Kau jauhkan segala malapetaka,
Kau hindarkanlah segala masalah,
Kau jauhkanlah segala gangguan...

Ya Allah, Kau mudahkanlah perjalanan kami,
sebelum kami di satukan,
Kau lindungilah kami di bawah lindunganMu..
Kau mudahkanlah rezki kami...
Kau kekalkanlah jodoh kami,
selama-lamanya...'

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I don't know..i have been feeling down lately. Not sure, if it's the cold feet (but is it too early for cold feet..?) or the stress or..i, myself isn't too sure anymore. I don't even know what trigger this kind of bad feeling. I just have 1001 questions and doubts thrown at me. I feel insure, feel like i'm losing everything. But i just couldn't put a finger to it; not sure what's happening to myself and my thoughts.

Hope, i'm not going crazy. Heh. It's just that what i'm feeling had a bad vibe to the people around me. And especially him. Hope this is temporary. And it's just the cold feet and stress taking over me.

Hopefully this is going to be over. Soon.

The Last Time...

2006-09-29T22:40:00.000+08:00

You never know...

if that's the last smile you'll ever see,
if that's the last laughter you'll ever heard,
if that's the last conversation you'll ever had,
if that's the last words they'll ever mention to you
if that's the last time they'll ever talk to you
if that's the last quarrel you'll ever had with them,
if that's the last time they'll ever nag at you,
if that's the last time they'll look at you with such love in their eyes,
if that's the last time, they ever say 'i love you',
if that's the last time you ever touch,
if that's the last time you had a meal together,
if that's the last kiss you ever had,
if that's the last hug you'll ever get
if that's the last time you'll see them,
if that's the last wish for you,
if that's the last birthday you ever celebrate with them...

You'll never know...

So tell them what you know today; tell them how much you know today. Tell them how much they matter to you.

Tell it today. And you'll never regret it tomorrow.

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Sometimes, news of death just scare me. And it's not their death which scare me but it's what we do before their passing that matter most.

Jeritan Jiwa: Satu

2006-09-28T22:12:00.000+08:00

Jeritan Jiwa: Satu

2006-09-27T09:41:00.000+08:00

Update - Job Vacancy (Admin Support)

2006-09-26T23:50:00.000+08:00

There's changes to the entry i posted earlier. Here's the new and updated requirements:

Requirements:

Malaysian Citizen

Fluent in Bahasa Inggeris (English Language)

University graduate

2 to 3 years working experience

Must be IT Savvy and familiar with Microsoft Applications

Must be able to begin work in October 2006

Salary:

Starting at $1,400 (approx RM3,206). Will be raise after probation period of 3 months.

Will be working in Singapore.

And please, this is a serious offer for serious candidate. If you think, you might be interested drop me your resume/CV at kiezamy@gmail.com Or if you got questions, you can buzz me Y!M - kiezamy.

Again, i repeat. This vacancy is only for those who are interested. If you aren't, then let others (who are really interested) take up the opportunity.

Thank you for your attention.

End.

The statistics

2006-09-25T09:52:00.000+08:00

Rakyat Malaysia belanja RM90 juta sebulan beli rokok
Oleh Suhana Abdul Mutalib

SHAH ALAM 24 Sept. – Rakyat Malaysia membelanjakan kira-kira RM3 juta sehari atau RM90 juta sebulan untuk membeli rokok.

Menyedari fenomena membimbangkan itu, kerajaan Selangor dan Hospital Tengku Ampuan Rahimah (HTAR) menganjurkan kempen khusus sempena bulan Ramadan ini untuk menggalakkan orang ramai terutama umat Islam berhenti merokok.

Pengerusi Jawatankuasa Tetap Hal Ehwal Islam Selangor, Datuk Abdul Rahman Palil berkata, jika dalam tempoh berpuasa perokok boleh mendisiplinkan diri tidak merokok, tidak mustahil untuk mereka terus meninggalkan tabiat yang bukan sahaja mengancam kesihatan tetapi juga pembaziran.

“Saya terkejut apabila angka itu didedahkan oleh Pengarah HTAR, Dr. Yahya Babai, cuba bayangkan RM3 juta sehari, kalau didarab sebulan dah jadi RM90 juta, kalau setahun?” katanya kepada Utusan Malaysia di sini hari ini.

Katanya, memandangkan pada siang hari umat Islam berpuasa, jadi beliau amat berharap kempen ini akan berjaya dilaksanakan seterusnya mengelakkan perbelanjaan merokok di kalangan masyarakat di negara ini.

Sementara itu, Abdul Rahman berkata, pihaknya juga telah mengeluarkan surat pekeliling kepada semua masjid di seluruh negeri agar menjadikan masjid sebagai kawasan larangan merokok.

Katanya, arahan itu diadakan bertujuan untuk mewujudkan persekitaran yang lebih sihat terutamanya di tempat suci seperti masjid yang mejadi tumpuan orang ramai untuk beribadah.

‘‘Jika pemeriksaan ke masjid-masjid mendapati ada disediakan tempat abu rokok, tindakan disiplin akan diambil, kita mahu masjid bebas sepenuhnya dari kawasan merokok,” katanya.

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I certainly know people who are part of this numbers. Scary isn't it?

Alhamdulillah!

2006-09-25T09:02:00.000+08:00

Alhamdulillah, alhamdulillah, alhamdulillah!

2 Ramadhan 1427

2006-09-25T07:00:00.000+08:00

Rasulullah s.a.w. bersabda:
"Puasa itu adalah perisai. Apabila seseorang di kalangan kamu berpuasa, dia tidak boleh (bercakap kotor) dan melakukan maksiat. Apabila seseorang mencacinya atau ingin bergaduh dengannya, hendaklah dia berkata: Aku sedang berpuasa." (Hadis Riwayat Bukhari dan Muslim)

Ramadhan Terakhir...

2006-09-23T21:42:00.000+08:00

Losing my sanity...

2006-09-20T19:13:00.000+08:00

After some muttering under his breath, he put up his big hands reaching out to me;"Welcome to C*****!* and smiled.

I was dumbfounded. Stunned. But still manage to take his hand. "Ek, dapat sekarang ke?" "Habis tu bila, awak nak lagi sebulan..?" The man with the big hands said jokingly.

"Taklah..tapi tak expect sesenang ini." At that time,i could feel my heart literally kecut; memang boleh rasa physically lah hati gue mengecut masa tu. Heh.

"So after this, I'll take you to sign the Letter of Appointment."

"Eh now? Aaa..i need to discuss with my parents first." That time, you could really hear my brain working overtime; spinning reasons to spurn at the officer.

"Kata tadik dah discuss dengan parents.."

"Memanglah, tapi tu kata nak apply. Ni nanti bila dapat, diaorang terkejut plak.." I could feel fear gripped on my heart tightly.

"So how long will you need..?"

"Err..this week? I promise by this week.." At that time, i could only hear a voice telling me,"run away Ani..run away!"

"Oklah. I give you till Monday?" "Ok," i nodded, getting up and getting ready to just bolt away fast.

But as an act of courtesy (kesian gaklah, yalah...dia bersungguh2 hulur tangan welcoming me but I asked to defer plak), i held out my hand to him. "Thank you."

And without looking back, i walked straight on. Even the policewoman at the door couldn't stopped in my tracks.

Scary. Damn scary..haha, what have i got myself into??

Damn short hair. Can't go home except on weekends for 7 weeks? Dang!

And when i saw the taxi driver's short crop hair, i cringed!!

Later, conversation with him;

"Wak, saya nak tanya soalan ni.."

"Apa dia..?"

"Kalau saya potong rambut pendek..." "Tak boleh!" He cut me short.

"Nantilah, saya belum abis tanya lagi.."

"Dah bagi jawapan, tak boleh. So semua tak bolehlah..."

"Then tak boleh balik rumah cuma weekends je dekat 2 bulan..?"

"Huh..awak..."

And that's just the answer i'm looking for. I had the answer right after the interview but i just need him to justify it. Heheh...

So, it's a NO!

Nak potong rambut yang panjang nie macam potong jantan tu? Lepas tu tak boleh balik rumah dekat 2 bulan? Adehhh..*shivers*

Job Vacancy - Admin Support

2006-09-19T11:37:00.000+08:00

An online shopping/trading company in Singapore looking for a suitable candidate for position of Admin Support;

Requirements:

Malaysian Chinese lady. Or a Mandarin-speaking lady.

University graduate

2 to 3 years working experience

Must be IT Savvy and familiar with Microsoft Applications

Salary:

Starting at $1,300 (approx RM2,938). Will be raise after probation period of 3 months.

Will be working in Singapore.

Interested? Buzz me either at my Y!M or at my email: kiezamy@gmail.com

This is for real, ok! :D

Are You Happy Now?

2006-09-19T11:32:00.000+08:00

I'm done. So done. Guess i have reached the end of the road.

So..are you happy now?

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Sometimes apology just don't cut it. Anymore.

I should know that. Been there, done that. And please, don't quote "we are human and human make mistake" kind of theory and explanation. It just won't work. Not this time. Not anymore.

Heh.

Orang salah sangka...

2006-09-16T19:02:00.000+08:00

Bila kita jadi berkira dengan duit dan dah jadi macam si Haji Bakhil, orang salah sangka. Kita di katakan pelokek. Sedangkan kita cuba berjimat. Untuk kita jugak nanti.

Bila kita marah-marah, orang salah sangka. Kita di katakan marah-marah tak tentu pasal. Sedangkan kita ni kasihan dan simpati kat dia, takut di marahi orang lain pulak.

Bila kita tak jawab panggilan telefon ataupun mesej, orang salah sangka. Kita di katakan nak mengelakkan diri. Sedangkan talian telefon tu dah lama tak bernyawa.

Bila kita bagi nasihat tentang hidup, orang salah sangka. Kita di katakan macam nak mengatur hidup dia. Sedangkan itulah bimbang dan ambil berat seorang kawan.

Bila kita tegur tentang yang mana harus di pentingkan, orang salah sangka. Kita di katakan cuba halang mimpi-mimpi dia. Sedangkan kita hendak mencapai salah satu impian dia.

Bila kita tak reply emel-emel tu, orang salah sangka. Kita di katakan nak menipu. Sedangkan kita dah cuba terangkan tapi di desak juga. Jalan yang paling baik mendiamkan diri dan harap dapat di fahami. Tapi sebaliknya pula yang terjadi.

Bila kita minta tangguh dulu, orang salah sangka. Kita di katakan bagi alasan. Sedangkan kita cuba nak atasi masalah yang lebih genting juga. Kita pun rindu jugak tapi...

Dah tak tau nak kata apa. Nak ngadu kat siapa. Bahu ni serasanya kalau boleh senget menanggung beban emosi macamnie, dah lama menyendeng ke kiri atau kanan.

Bila kita buka mulut, semua orang salah sangka.

Mungkin lebih baik berdiam diri...

**********

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find
You and I collide

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
I somehow find
You and I collide

- Collide, Howie Day

At 29 going 30

2006-09-15T14:01:00.000+08:00

Nak cerita apa ek? Takmu cerita pasal kawin2 lagi sebab ada orang complain kita asyik cakap pasal kawin jek. At least i generalise kan..Huhu

Oklah, this list had been in my draft for quite a while now. So at 29 going 30...

1) Life seems easier back then. Everything is so straight forward. No frills, no thrills. I missed that kind of life.

2) I have always wanted to take up kickboxing. But i never find the time nor the courage to do that.

3) I wanted a stable, steady income. But at this age, it all seems to late to start now.

4) I want to get marry before 30. We'll see about that eh, heh. Insyallah..

5) I had visited the country of my dream; since i was a kid - Australia. One down, one more to go - New Zealand (this came about after watching LOTR, huhu..)

6) I wanted to study and be an accountant. A free-lance at least. But neither, did this come true.

7) I want to bring up my family the way i was never brought - with lots of love, respect, unwavering and undivided love and attention. Insyallah.

8) I or should i rephrase that as we wanted to go to Germany for the World Cup 2006. But guess, we took a raincheck on that when we realised how big the expenses will be.

9) I wish i could turn back time. And never err as such.

10) I had and lost an Angel. My Angel would have been 2 now.

11) I had cultivate a very strong habit - reading during my meals. Be it breakfast, lunch, dinner or even supper. I just had to read (newspapers,books, magazines) while eating. Susah nak buang dah ni, heh.

12) I realised that I might have a little bit of Bree (Desperate Housewives)in myself. Scary, huhu...

13) I have never a real best friend. Never. I may have found my soulmate but not a best friend. Guess i'll never did.

14) I have been hurt. A lot.

15) I'm in love and being loved; like never before.

16) I have understood people more. And realise that sometimes they do not work on the OS like mine, hah!

17) I might have OCD?? Heh.

18) I still have problem telling right from left.

Kawan & Gula-gula

2006-09-07T16:30:00.000+08:00

Sesuatu untuk kita fikir2kan.

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Kawan kata...

Perempuan tu ibarat gula-gula. Atau bahasa inggerisnya, sweet. Kan? Ke aku silap ye? =D

Dia suruh aku bayangkan, kedua belah tangannya menggenggam sebiji gula-gula tiap satu genggaman. Andaikanlah gula-gula fox yang berwarna-warni tu. Sekarang nie gula-gula tu berbalut, kemas je. Maklumlah, baru je beli.

Gula-gula yang terdapat pada tangan kiri, di buka plastiknya. Sekarang gula-gula tersebut tidak berbaju seperti gula-gula di sebelah tangan kanan. Kedua-duanya adalah gula-gula yang sama, bezanya satu berbaju dan satu tidak lagi berbaju.

Kemudian, kedua-duanya di letakkan ke atas pasir. Andai kata kawan meminta sahabatnya membuat pilihan gula-gula yang menjadi pilihan untuk di makan, agak-agak gula-gula mana yang akan sahabat tersebut pilih untuk di makan? Sudah tentulah yang berbalut tadi.

Begitulah ibaratnya jika kita tidak memakai tudung. Kita seperti insan yang sudah kotor, debu-debu dosa dari tayangan rambut kita kepada orang lelaki. Begitu juga dengan keistimewaan kita sudah terlihat dek mata-mata manusia di luar sana. Lelaki yang bijak tidak akan memilih wanita yang tidak bertudung sebagai teman hidupnya. Atas pelbagai asbab yang Islam pernah ajarkan. Perempuan (isteri-isteri) itu bisa menarik lelaki-lelaki (suami-suami) masuk ke neraka, oleh sebab itu lelaki perlu berhati-hati dalam pemilihan. Rasulullah pernah bersabda bahawasanya, ada 4 perkara yang perlu di lihat ketika mengahwini seseorang iaitu hartanya, keturunannya, rupanya dan agamanya. Maka, pilihlah agamanya terlebih dahulu nescaya terhindarlah diri kita dari azab neraka (tidak kira lelaki atau perempuan).

Kawan sambung...

Apabila sahabat kawan tersebut dah makan gula-gula tersebut, dia rasa kurang enak, tak sedap dan bermacam-macam perasaan lagi. Jadi dia ludah balik gula-gula tersebut. Cuba dia berikan pada orang lain di luar sana, adakah mereka akan makan gula-gula tersebut? Belum tentu ada yang nak, walaupun masih boleh di bersihkan dengan air mutlak di luar sana.

Perempuan itu seperti gula-gula, sangat cantik, tak boleh menahan nafsu bentuk gula-gulanya yang menawan. Tetapi, dalamnya belum tentu memuaskan hati orang yang makan. Kadang-kadang gula-gula tu rasa sedap masa awal-awal saja, dah lama-lama jadi payau pula rasanya. Jadi setiap orang mempunyai rasa yang berbeza mengenai gula-gula tersebut. Begitulah juga perempuan, awal-awal nampak saja manis di mata lelaki, tetapi makin lama menjemukan, tak best dan sebagainya.

Dalam bahasa lain, perempuan-perempuan yang sudah di 'tebuk' bagaikan gula-gula yang sudah di hisap kemudian di luahkan balik kerana sebab-sebab tertentu. Tidak semua lelaki sudi menerima perempuan yang sudah di 'tebuk' dengan alasan tidak mahu terkena penyakit yang mungkin akan membawa kepada kemudaratan di masa akan datang. Namun, tidaklah bermakna mereka hina-dina sampai tidak boleh langsung di terima, andai gula-gula tersebut di basuh dan di cuci semula, barangkali perempuan itu sudah bertaubat dan tidak akan mengulangi kesilapan yang sama di hari mendatang. Makanya, adalah salah jika kita terus-menerus menghukumnya dosa dan di benci saja. Ini berbalik kepada lelaki yang mempunyai taste yang berbeza dengan lelaki yang dah meludahkan gula-gula tersebut kerana perasa yang tidak kena.

Kawan tambah lagi...

Pentingnya di sini kita dapat lihat 'gula-gula' yang di tutup kemas tadi masih di pandang enak dan menjadi pilihan ramai lelaki. Cumanya, jika mahukan yang benar-benar tertutup kemas dari segala sudutnya, perbaikilah diri sendiri untuk menjadi yang lebih baik dari gula-gula tersebut. Sesungguhnya, wanita yang baik adalah untuk lelaki yang baik, dan lelaki yang baik adalah untuk wanita yang baik.

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Source: Telah di cilok dari sini setelah meninggalkan message meminta keizinan =)

'Crikey' dies

2006-09-04T20:48:00.000+08:00

‘Crocodile Hunter’ Steve Irwin killed by stingray
Internationally recognized environmentalist, 44, was filming documentary

CAIRNS, Australia - Steve Irwin, the hugely popular Australian television personality and conservationist known as the “Crocodile Hunter,” was killed Monday by a stingray while filming off the Great Barrier Reef. He was 44.

Irwin was at Batt Reef, off the remote coast of northeastern Queensland state, shooting a segment for a series called “Ocean’s Deadliest” when he swam too close to one of the animals, which have a poisonous bard on their tails, his friend and colleague John Stainton said.

“He came on top of the stingray and the stingray’s barb went up and into his chest and put a hole into his heart,” said Stainton, who was on board Irwin’s boat at the time.

Crew members aboard the boat, Croc One, called emergency services in the nearest city, Cairns, and administered CPR as they rushed the boat to nearby Low Isle to meet a rescue helicopter. Medical staff pronounced Irwin dead when they arrived a short time later, Stainton said.

Irwin was famous for his enthusiasm for wildlife and his catchword “Crikey!” in his television program “Crocodile Hunter.” First broadcast in Australia in 1992, the program was picked up by the Discovery network, catapulting Irwin to international celebrity.

He rode his image into a feature film, 2002’s “The Crocodile Hunters: Collision Course” and developed the wildlife park that his parents opened, Australia Zoo, into a major tourist attraction.

“The world has lost a great wildlife icon, a passionate conservationist and one of the proudest dads on the planet,” Stainton told reporters in Cairns. “He died doing what he loved best and left this world in a happy and peaceful state of mind. He would have said, ’Crocs Rule!”’

'A huge loss to Australia'
Prime Minister John Howard, who hand-picked Irwin to attend a gala barbecue to honor President Bush when he visited in 2003, said he was “shocked and distressed at Steve Irwin’s sudden, untimely and freakish death.”

“It’s a huge loss to Australia,” Howard told reporters. “He was a wonderful character. He was a passionate environmentalist. He brought joy and entertainment and excitement to millions of people.”

Irwin, who made a trademark of hovering dangerously close to untethered crocodiles and leaping on their backs, spoke in rapid-fire bursts with a thick Australian accent and was almost never seen without his uniform of khaki shorts and shirt and heavy boots.

His ebullience was infectious and Australian officials sought him out for photo opportunities and to promote Australia internationally.

Irwin’s public image was dented, however, in 2004 when he caused an uproar by holding his infant son in one arm while feeding large crocodiles inside a zoo pen. Irwin claimed at the time there was no danger to the child, and authorities declined to charge Irwin with violating safety regulations.

Later that year, he was accused of getting too close to penguins, a seal and humpback whales in Antarctica while making a documentary. Irwin denied any wrongdoing, and an Australian Environment Department investigation recommended no action be taken against him.

Stingrays have a serrated, toxin-loaded barb, or spine, on the top of their tail. The barb, which can be up to 10 inches long, flexes if a ray is frightened. Stings usually occur to people when they step on or swim too close to a ray and can be excruciatingly painful but are rarely fatal, said University of Queensland marine neuroscientist Shaun Collin.

'Extraordinarily bad luck'
Collin said he suspected Irwin died because the barb pierced under his ribcage and directly into his heart.

“It was extraordinarily bad luck. It’s not easy to get spined by a stingray and to be killed by one is very rare,” Collin said.

News of Irwin’s death spread quickly, and tributes flowed from all quarters of society.

At Australia Zoo at Beerwah, south Queensland, floral tributes were dropped at the entrance, where a huge fake crocodile gapes. Drivers honked their horns as they passed.

“Steve, from all God’s creatures, thank you. Rest in peace,” was written on a card with a bouquet of native flowers.

“We’re all very shocked. I don’t know what the zoo will do without him. He’s done so much for us, the environment and it’s a big loss,” said Paula Kelly, a local resident and volunteer at the zoo, after dropping off a wreath at the gate.

Stainton said Irwin’s American-born wife Terri, from Eugene, Ore., had been informed of his death, and had told their daughter Bindi Sue, 8, and son Bob, who will turn 3 in December.

The couple met when she went on vacation in Australia in 1991 and visited Irwin’s Australia Zoo; they were married six months later. Sometimes referred to as the “Crocodile Huntress,” she costarred on her husband’s television show and in his 2002 movie.

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Shocking, yes.

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Source: MSNBC

Wedding Registry

2006-09-04T01:30:00.000+08:00

For the fun of it, heh!

.....

2006-09-03T01:29:00.000+08:00

Rindunya......

*sigh*

Nak tidur dah. Selamat pagi...

Saya rindu kat awak.....

*102 days,13h,34m 15s and counting* Heh.

Bukan Merdeka...

2006-08-31T10:08:00.000+08:00

...aku ternampak kereta mereka di belakang ku. Bekas kekasihku, Ridwan dan ibunya. 'Eh, diaorang pun datang juga?' aku bertanya sendiri.

Sebaik kereta berhenti, aku pantas melangkah masuk ke rumah. Langkahku makin pantas ku atur ke arah dapur pabila aku terlihat Ridwan menuju ke arah ku.

Di dapur, terlihat nenek dan ibu saudara sibuk memasak. "Zamani ada telefon tak?" Punggung ku labuhkan di hadapan ibu saudaraku. Terlihat nenek ku mengukirkan senyuman ke arah ku. Terasa seperti mengusik diriku. "Ada, dekat sepuluh kali dah.."ibu saudara aku menjawab seketika kemudian. Tersenyum juga.

"Alamak, laki aku call sampai sepuluh kali.." Pantas aku berlari keluar dari dapur.

And i have to wake up at that very moment. Now i never know how it ended. Darnlah!

p/s: makin nak dekat hari nie, kenapa aku mimpi semua lelaki yang pernah ada dalam hidup aku ek..huhu..

Cinta Lagi

2006-08-27T19:17:00.000+08:00

sebisa mungkin tak akan pernah..sayangku akan hilang
(OST 'Heart')

Cinta Iqbal & June

2006-08-27T02:05:00.000+08:00

"walau cinta tak pernah aku cuba,
tak pernah aku rasa,
aku mampu berikan segalanya,
cuma hanya...
jika kau bawa aku terbang bersama,
meneroka alam cintamu yang beku...
izinkan aku mencairkannya,
izinkan aku temanimu,
hingga ke akhir masa..."

'Dewa Cintaku' - Novel Cinta Muzikal Pertama Malaysia.

Iqbal dan June. Cinta mereka melalui berbagai dugaan dan rintangan. Hingga mereka hampir berputus asa dan hanya menyerah kepada takdir. Mereka fikir cinta bukan milik mereka.

Iqbal dan June. Adalah dua insan. Yang miliki sejarah hidup yang suram; akibat dari keluarga yang berpecah belah. Mereka menjadi mangsa.

Iqbal, lelaki yang tak mudah dan bertekad untuk tak mahu jatuh cinta selagi tidak menemui keluarganya. Di datangi oleh Selena, Lynn. Tapi matanya terpaut hanya pada June.

June, wanita yang berpewarakan kasar. Yang berjiwa tegar akibat kesengsaraan dan kekecewaan dari masa lampaunya.

Mereka bertemu. Bercinta. Dan...

Heh. Yang selebihnya, kena baca sendiri lah ek.

Iqbal adalah Rosyam Noor. June? Baca dan lihat siapa yang terlintas di kepala otak tu. Heh. Dalam kepala otak aku lak, cuma ada Rita Rudiani je yang terlintas. Huhu...

Cerita Kawin III - Love Quotes

2006-08-23T11:47:00.000+08:00

"Marriage is not a ritual or an end. It is a long, intricate, intimate dance together and nothing matters more than your own sense of balance and your choice of partner." - Amy Bloom

"Keep your eyes wide open before marriage, and half shut afterwards." - Benjamin Franklin

"Love isn't blind; it just only sees what matters." - William Curry

"To handle yourself, use your head; to handle others, use your heart." - Donald Laird

"If I had a flower for every time I thought of you, I could walk in my garden forever." - Alfred Lord Tennyson

Kick me...

2006-08-19T23:55:00.000+08:00

when i'm down...heh

You and you included.

*sigh*

On The Dotted Line

2006-08-19T11:49:00.000+08:00

I lose ...

self confidence

self-esteem

trust

friendship

belief

myself

...over it.

The price i had to pay. It's like signing my life away.

It feels like losing everything i've ever had. And believe in. What's left there for me to live for? I don't know.

*sigh*

Cerita Kawin II - Siti Situ Sana Sini

2006-08-19T11:12:00.000+08:00

Tengok tv, ada Siti. Tengok internet, ada Siti. Tengok paper, ada Siti. D'oh, rimas weii..cepat-cepat kawin woo, get it over and done with!

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But this is certainly a scary news for Siti:

GAMBAR SITI DAN 'DATUK K' DITEMUI DALAM LIANG LAHAD KOTA TINGGI:
Penemuan tiga kain putih yang diikat berbentuk patung kecil dalam dua liang lahad kosong di tanah perkuburan Islam Kampung Makam, dekat sini, menjadi tanda tanya.

Ini memandangkan dua daripadanya mengandungi gambar penyanyi, Siti Nurhaliza, dan bakal suaminya, Datuk Khalid Mohd Jiwa, atau dikenali sebagai 'Datuk K'.

Wakil Harian Metro yang menemubual petugas tanah perkuburan dan penduduk kampung, ditunjukkan barangan yang diisi dalam kain putih yang diikat lima seperti jenazah yang dikafan.

Penggali kubur, Encik Zainal Kamari, 28 tahun, berkata selepas solat maghrib Rabu lalu, beliau bersama rakan dan beberapa penduduk menyiapkan satu liang bagi pengebumian seorang mangsa kemalangan.

Ketika itu, terdapat lima liang lahad kosong digali sebagai persediaan awal.

'Ketika saya turun membersihkan lantai liang sedalam dua meter itu, saya ternampak dua kain putih sepanjang 13 sentimeter yang diikat lima seperti jenazah yang sudah dikafan.

'Saya hulurkan kepada pembuat kepuk nisan dan seorang pemuda yang selalu membantu kerja di kubur.

'Mereka membuka ikatan benang itu dan mendapati dalam setiap kain putih itu mengandungi gambar Siti Nurhaliza dan 'Datuk K' daripada keratan akhbar, tulisan wafak dan 39 bilah jarum,' katanya.

Encik Zainal berkata sebahagian jarum itu dicucukkan pada gambar Siti dan 'Datuk K'.

Sementara itu, Mufti Johor, Datuk Nooh Gadut, menasihatkan pihak yang cuba menyihir bakal pengantin itu supaya segera bertaubat nasuha kerana perbuatan itu berdosa besar. - Harian Metro.

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Heh. Whatever it is, don't resort to thislah. Biarkanlah dia, it's her life. We got our own life to live for, right?

Source: Cyberita

Cerita Kawin I

2006-08-19T00:01:00.000+08:00

Sharing; untuk sesiapa yang dah berkahwin, akan berkahwin atau yang akan berkahwin lagi, ihiks..

PERUBAHAN SELEPAS BERUMAHTANGGA
Hadapi dengan lapang

Bila anda memasuki fasa awal perkahwinan ataupun bakal melangsungkan nya,bersedialah menghadapi perubahan-perubahan ini dan sedaya upaya belajar menyesuaikan diri supaya hubungan cinta selepas kahwin akan berkekalan.

PERUBAHAN GAYA HIDUP

Umumnya yang baru berumahtangga harus banyak menabung untuk membiayai keperluan rumahtangga. Keadaan ini berbeza ketika bujang kerna pendapatan hanya ditujukan untuk diri sendiri.

PERUBAHAN TEMAN-TEMAN

Perkahwinan membuatkan seseorang memiliki peluang mendapat teman baru atau bertemu jiran baru ataupun tambahan teman daripada pasangan. Pada masa yang sama ia juga akan membuatkan seseorang akan kehilangan teman. Perubahan status diri akan membuat seseorang cenderung mencari teman yang mempunyai status yang sama untuk berkongsi perasaan.

PERUBAHAN PANDANGAN

Selapas berkahwin seseorang itu melihat dunia ini lebih realistic. Jika dulu inginkan pasangan yang bersemangat dan berpenampilan tapi setiap masa,setelah mendirikan rumaahtangga keadaannya berbeza. Anda tidak akan menuntut hal yg sama dan tidak kisah melihat pasangana berpenampilan biasa-biasa asalkan tahu hatinya senang.

PERUBAHAN PERIBADI

Sebelum berumahtangga setiap orang akan sedaya upaya menunjukkan peribadi atau sikap yang terbaik,tetapi setelah sebumbung bersedialah menghadapi perkara-perkara buruk daripadanya.

PERUBAHAN PENAMPILAN

Sebelum bernikah pasangan anda selalu dilihat rapi,wangi,cantik dan sedap mata memandang, bersiaplah untuk melihat pemandangan sebaliknya. Jangan kecewa melihat nya dalam keadaan tidak sempurna kerana tiada dandanan atau solekan yang dapat bertahan 24jam. Itu belum lagi di saat-saat dia dilanda masalah atau sakit…

PERUBAHAN SETELAH HADIRNYA ANAK

Semua perubahan yang disebutkan tadi akan berulang kembali atau bertambah selepas kehadiran di kecil. Kehadiran cahaya mata membawa perubahan yang sangat besar dalam suatu perkahwinan. Janganlah mengelakkannya kerana segala perubahan atau penambahan tanggungjawap ketika lahirnya anak akan terbayar dengan kebahagiaan yang anda dan pasangan rasakan.

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10 Perkara Yang Memeranjatkan Dalam Perkahwinan:

1. Berkahwin tidak bermakna anda tidak akan keseorangan lagi.
"Saya dan suami baru sahaja mengikuti kaunseling. Tiada apa-apa yang drastik cuma kami dapat rasakan bahawa kami semakin berjauhan dari segiemosi dan fizikal. Jiwa semakin terasa keseorangan. Nasib baik kami berdua cepat sedar dan sanggup mendapatkan bantuan daripada mengambil tindakan yang bertentangan."

2. Berkahwin tidak bermakna anda akan berasa menyintai atau dicintai setiap hari.
"Kebahagiaan dalam perkahwinan tidak berlaku sekelip mata kerana masalah tentu akan timbul. Ada masalah besar dan ada yang kecil. Kadangkala anda akan merasakan diri sudah tidak dicintai."
Amat penting bagi masing-masing mengucapkan perasaan cinta dan mencintai.

3. Anda masih perlu menghangatkan suasana.
"Kami suami isteri mempunyai kerjaya yang sangat sibuk dan jarang dapat
meluangkan masa bersama. Untuk mengelakkan perasaan seperti teman sebilik
sahaja, kami cuba terapkan kebiasaan untuk memeluk antara satu sama lain
dan bercerita setiap malam sebelum melelapkan mata."

4. Perkahwinan adalah sesuatu yang menyeronokkan.
"Saya dan isteri amat menyenangi kehadiran masing-masing. Kami gemar
bergelak ketawa bersama, bergurau dan mengusik. Setiap hari ada sahaja SMS
yang dihantar... kadang kala lawak jenaka dan ada juga mesej berunsur seks nakal."

5. Lazimnya salah seorang akan lebih banyak berkorban.
"Mana ada yang seratus peratus adil pembahagiannya. Selalunya isteri akan lebih banyak berkorban terutamanya dari segi kerjaya. Kadang-kala ada yangterpaksa melepaskan kenaikan pangkat kerana tidak ingin rumahtangga kucar-kacir."

6. Pasangan anda akan berubah mengikut masa.
Anda harus menerima kenyataan bahawa masing-masing akan berubah mengikut
masa. Kadang-kalanya dari segi perangai, rupa paras , bentuk badan dan hobi.
Tiada orang yang akan kekal sama seperti mana mula-mula berkenalan dahulu.

7. Anda tidak semestinya akan bersetuju dalam semua perkara.
Suami akan tetap mahu menggunakan wang bonus untuk membesarkan garaj
manakala isteri inginkan sofa baru. Terimalah hakikat bahawa masing-masing
ada keinginan yang berbeza. Yang penting tolak ansur-mungkin bonus tahun
ini mengikut kehendak isteri manakala bonus tahun depan untuk suami pula.

8. Semakin lama berkahwin semakin bahagia.
Pasangan yang memahami kehendak masing-masing dan mengamalkan tolak ansur
dalam kebanyakan perkara sepanjang mereka berkahwin, lazimnya akan berjaya
melawan badai atau apa-apa masalah. Mereka inilah yang dapat menikmati
kemanisan berumahtangga. Sememangnya pasangan ini adalah "soulmate" masing-masing.

9. Hubungan seks ada turun naiknya.
Kadang kala sangat berkesan dan ada kalanya tidak begitu memberansangkan.Masing-masing seharusnya menerima bahawa ianya bergantung kepada "mood" dan keadaan sekeliling.

10. Perasaan Ego yang berlebihan adalah amat berbahaya.
Apabila perselisihan terjadi, masing-masing menjadi begitu sensitif dan
mementingkan ego. Jika terlampau mengikut ego, anda mungkin akan
memanjangkan masalah yang kecil. Elakkan daripada menyimpan perasaan
marah terlalu lama kerana pasangan anda mungkin akan berubah hati.
Sanggupkah anda?

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Source: Telah di cilok setelah meminta izin dari sini.TQ Kak Jie! :)

Orang kata..

2006-08-18T23:10:00.000+08:00

When you find that special someone, you blog less. Why? Maybe we just ran out of words? Or spending every waking hours with your other half seems a gazillion time better than updating your blog; detailing every bits and pieces of your (miserable) day? Or maybe we just lost interest cause we have found an interest in her/him instead?

But some people, they blog more. They got a million things to say. About their wonderful love life. About how so in love are they (which sometimes proved too much for me. When that happens, i just click the red X button, heh.)

And some people, when they got married they stopped blogging! Entirely. Cause their time is now dedicated to their husband/wife. And they need more time when they have their own kids. No time for blogging anymore.

Heh. What lah am i trying to say here? I'm soon to be a part of this community. Losing the fire to blog anymore. I don't want to stop. My blog is where i preserve my sanity (i'm not going crazy yet. No!) But i don't know. I just can't find things to blog about. Anymore. Yeah, yeah i'm in love. But that was like a decade ago..? So why now? Heh. You'll know the reason. Soon. In 3 months time, to be precise.

Hiks.

So let's see then. If this blog can still exists...

Pssst!

2006-08-18T22:59:00.000+08:00

(,") Pssst! (.")

(.") Nak pe? (",)

(,") Sinilah! (".)

(.") (",) Apa dier?

("*(",) Saja nak cakap...'rindu kt awak'

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Schweet, ihiks...

Here By Me

2006-08-14T21:48:00.000+08:00

I hope you’re doing fine out there without me
‘Cause I’m not doing so good without you
The things I thought you’d never know about me
Were the things I guess you always understood

- Here By Me (3 Doors Down)

Warkah

2006-08-14T21:02:00.000+08:00

5hb Ogos. Dah tiba dan pergi. Tahniah, selamat pengantin baru!

5hb Ogos. Dah seminggu berlalu. Awak pun dah mulakan satu lembaran baru dalam hidup awak. Dan saya juga sepatutnya begitu. Tapi, kenapa saya masih lagi di sini. Mengenggam semua yang tertinggal dahulu. Ketika saya meninggalkan awak. Setelah cuba bertahan hampir 3 tahun.

Saya di sini bukan kerana rasa kasih yang masih bersisa untuk awak. Tidak, jauh sekali saya hendak berperasaan begitu. Lagipun siapalah awak. Seperti apa yang dilemparkan pada Amira Zulfa dalam Slot Cerekarama TV3 2 hari lepas - 'Awak ni memang tak layak untuk di sayangi.' Macamtu juga dengan diri awak, heh.

Mungkin saya masih di sini sebab apa yang masih terpendam jauh di suduh hati saya. Sebab apa yang dah terjadi selama 3 tahun saya bersama awak. Saya seolah-olah di tipu dengan rasa sayang awak. Yang mungkin tak pernah wujud untuk saya. Lepas satu, satu pembohongan awak cipta. Kononnya, awak nak jaga hati saya. Jaga hati saya ke? Hmm...

Dan sepanjang 3 tahun itulah juga, saya dah korbankan hampir seluruh jiwa raga saya. Kepercayaan hidup saya. Prinsip hidup saya. Semuanya rebah dek cintakan awak. Ya, saya tak patut salahkan sesiapa sebab itu kelemahan saya. Kelemahan saya kerana cintakan awak.

Akhirnya, saya terkorban. Dan selepas itu, saya melalui detik yang paling hitam dalam hidup saya. Seorang diri. Ke mana awak? Awak menggugut untuk meninggalkan saya. Sekali lagi saya rapuh. Kerana cinta kan awak.

Bodoh ke saya ni? Setelah hampir 3 tahun, saya sudah penat bertarung. Bertarung untuk merebut cinta yang memang dari awal lagi bukan milik saya. Saya mengambil keputusan meninggalkan awak. Dan itulah saat paling bahagia dalam hidup saya.

Tapi kenapa saya masih di sini? Sebabnya, saya tak pernah dapat terima apa yang telah berlaku antara kita. Saya tak pernah bersalah. Jauh sekali menduakan cinta awak. Tapi kenapa ini yang saya terima? Setelah begini jauh, saya menuruti diri awak. Kenapa awak mengheret saya ke dalam konflik diri awak yang mungkin pada masa tu kecewa dengan bekas kekasih awak. Tapi kenapa saya yang di jadikkan tempat persinggahan..?

Awak pernah tanya pada saya, bolehkah saya memaafkan awak. Sehingga sekarang, saya belum mampu lagi. Mungkin satu hari nanti. Atau mungkin tidak sampai bila-bila.

Walaupun lebih banyak kenangan pahit ketika kita bersama, tapi ada juga kenangan manis. Sewaktu bowling session kita di Midvalley, Sunway. Ketika saya berada di KL selama seminggu. Itulah saat paling manis. Tapi itulah juga saat yang merubah segalanya.

Cukuplah. Sampai di sini sahaja. Saya takkan mendoakkan kesusahan maupun kesejahteraan awak. Kita sekarang berada di dua landasan yang berbeza. Di dua bahtera yang berlainan. Pandai-pandailah kita mengemudikannya agar tiba di sebelah sana dengan selamat.

Sebelum saya mengakhiri warkah ini, satu lagi pesan saya. Awak tak perlulah cuba-cuba untuk contact saya lagi. Baik di Friendster, Yahoo! atau di mana emel sekali pun. Kerana saya sudah selesai. Tiada apa lagi yang perlu di perkatakan. Dan saya tidak ada niat untuk berkawan sekali pun.

Tahniah sekali lagi.

Wasalam...

Jeritan Jiwa: Bebas

2006-08-09T16:27:00.000+08:00

Jeritan Jiwa: Bebas

2006-08-08T00:29:00.000+08:00

December, it is...

2006-07-31T21:02:00.000+08:00

Tried, i did. To put it down into words. To make it sound. Heh. But somehow, i couldn't string the words together.

So i let the pictures speaks a thousand words eh? *smile*

Yes, it's going to be a December wedding.

And yes, you are certainly invited.

There, i've said it. Phewww..*silly grin*

Actor Hani Mohsin Dies

2006-07-25T12:51:00.000+08:00

KUALA LUMPUR: Actor Hani Mohsin Hanafi, 43, collaped and died at the low-cost carrier terminal in Sepang at 9.30am while waiting to board a flight to Alor Setar on Tuesday.

Mohsin was traveling with his nine-year-old daughter Hani Karmila -- from his previous marriage to Datin Seri Tiara Jacquelina -- when he complained of chest pains before collapsing.

Hani Karmila immediately called her mother, who rushed to the airport with husband Datuk Seri Effendi Norwawi.

Mohsin's remains have been brought to hospital for an autopsy.

Mohsin was the host of popular TV game show Roda Impian before his death.

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This news came as a sad and shocking news to me. Semoga Allah mencucuri rahmat ke atas rohnya.

Al-Fatihah.

Uik!

2006-07-23T19:22:00.000+08:00

Sapa yang google gue tu? huhu..That he/she even knows both my nicks, heh. Scary d'uh..

Riddles

2006-07-22T00:37:00.000+08:00

I don't cry in front of you. I don't tell you my worries. I don't share my unhappiness with you. You won't hear my heart breaking. You won't see the tears on my cheeks.

I talk in riddles. Good, if you understand. Too bad, if you don't.

But let's just put it this way - Read the unwritten words, hear the unsaid words. Read what i'm not writing, hear what i'm not saying.

Now all that it's said and done, could i have your shoulder to cry on..?

*sigh*

Biarlah Rahsia Dia...

2006-07-17T23:19:00.000+08:00

Biarkan lah dia. Nak nikah bila ke, tunang bila ke. Cincin dia besau mana ke. Nak buat wedding dia kat mana ke. Berapa belanja majlis dia ke, nak buat kat klcc ke kat mana ke..So sekarang dah puas main teka teki, move on already!

Heh, tensi betul!

For more tensi entry on the same subject, go here. Hiks..

Coincidence

2006-07-14T00:08:00.000+08:00

Horoscope:

Sagittarius;

Unsettling revelations about financial or legal matters aren't what you planned to spend your time on. But with Mercury retrogarde from the 4th to 29th, facts of many varieties come to light. All point to the need to make some changes. Until then, balance questioning why problems arose and how they can be prevented with exploring intriguing new ideas. Some involve travel,or study. However, because you'll soon be restructuring your domestic and working life, finalise nothing until you have the full picture, probably around the month's close.

Gemini;

While July isn't easy, you'll be eternally grateful for both the existing issues you deal with and with what you learn. Having recently made overly-optimistic promises, you must now revise these, particularly those involving money. You're also examining your priorities, in part prompted by issues highlighted byy your ruler Mercury's retrograde cycle, from the 4th to the 29th. Ironically, the accompanying confusion unearths misunderstandings you were unaware of. Better yet, in the process of confronting these, you reconnect with certain individuals and hopes you'd long given up on.

*****

What's with the 4th and 29th? Heh. And these words seems to fit to a T in the current situation.

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Hati macam dah tawar. Entahlah...

World Cup Germany 2006: Pemain paling bodoh (what was Zidane thinking?!!)

2006-07-11T00:48:00.000+08:00

What on earth happened there?! What happened to the coolest and most calm player throughout the World Cup?!! Was that a spur of the moment; so pressurized to win during his last match? Words had it that he was provoked by Matterazi. Nevertheless, that act should never happened.

That head-butting was clearly a disappointment. And certainly unexpected from such a professional player. It sad to see a good, long career ending in such a sour note. This will certainly go down in the World Cup history.
Of course, i was glad that Italy won the finals but at the same it leave such a bad taste to see Zidane's exit in such a way. Moreover, when he was hype to receive the Golden Ball 2006 by FIFA. Maybe it's the pressure getting to him..maybe *sigh*

So this drama match marked the end of the World Cup Germany 2006. And when then next World Cup, i'll be..err..34? Yikes! Hehe..And like she mentioned too, hopefully we won't be watching it alone. And hopefully i'll be watching it with the likes of Tuah and Teja eh sis? *grins* (insider's joke)

Jeritan Jiwa: Malam

2006-07-09T23:50:00.000+08:00

Jeritan Jiwa: Malam

2006-07-06T23:14:00.000+08:00

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2006-07-06T10:12:00.000+08:00

Nak buat promo sat, ehem..ehem, hiks.

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Need to go shopping? Why not do them online? You save time and maybe a little bit of money, no?

Hop on here and shop to your heart's content.

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Wedding Ring

2006-07-05T14:26:00.000+08:00

Forwarded email; an interesting and sweet fact indeed :)

Follow these steps; as per the picture:

1. Firstly, show your palm, centre finger bend and put together back to back.

2. Secondly, put the 4 fingers tips to tips.

3. Game begin; follow the below arrangement.

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1 Try to open your thumb. The thumb represent our parents, it can be open cause all human does go thru sickness and will eventually die. Which means our parents will leave us one day.

2 Close up your thumb, then open your second finger. The finger represent your siblings, they do have their own family which means they will leave us too.

3 Now close up your second finger. Open up your little finger, this represent your children. Sooner or later they too will leave us for they got they own life to live.

4 Lastly, close up your little fingers. Try to open your fourth finger which we put our wedding ring, you will be surprise to find that it cannot be open at all. Because it represent husband and wife, this whole life you will be attach to each other.

Interesting eh? *smile*

Mimpi...

2006-07-04T12:25:00.000+08:00

Jika bermimpi gigi anda patah menandakan saudara anda akan mendapat kemalangan atau mati.

I don't believe in dreams, but somehow this worries me. Heh.

Source

World Cup Germany 2006: Matches paling sedih (Bola tu bolat...)

2006-07-02T05:12:00.000+08:00

What happened lah?

2 of among my favorites team were out of the World Cup; England and Brazil (d'oh!). England's exit was expected lah when they went into the penalty round. They were never good penalty shooters! And Frank Lampard was into the penalty line up, whattabout??!

And Brazil was beaten to France 1 - 0. Brazil out of the World Cup, unbelievable right? It's like World Cup is spelt B-R-A-Z-I-L. So what happened this time?

Like we always said, "bola tu bulat." Heh. And it's the World Cup, anything can happened.

So who did you predict for the World Cup 2006 finale?

Me? I don't know. Bola tu bolat. Heh.

News & Photos Source

Photo Friday: Happiness Is...

2006-07-01T01:52:00.000+08:00

Photo Friday

When you promise to spent your lifetime with me. Binded by the promise of love.

Lohh...

2006-07-01T00:37:00.000+08:00

I'm not supposed to answer his calls lah, d'oh! Camner boleh lupa daa..Hancus plan nak merajuk/lie low for a few days.

Kiez nie memang *selenge!

Tsk, tsk, tsk...

*selenge = bodoh (slang Spore)

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Kenapa marah?

Sebab after creating all that unecessary bruhaha, lepas tu he said to just forget it. ??!!

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The Germans just equalised, damn lar!!

Zen Creative

2006-06-30T20:34:00.000+08:00

This Creative Zen has been shown on our local tv for quite a while now.

Comei!

Tak pernah...

2006-06-30T18:28:00.000+08:00

Tak pernah rasa macamnie. Sakit rasanya bila orang macam dah tak percaya dengan kita.

Sedih.

Kecik hati.

*sigh*

Oklah, nak balik..otak, minda dah penat.

Note: This certainly isn't a Fly-Day, heh.

Come!

2006-06-27T22:16:00.000+08:00

Join me!

World Cup Germany 2006: Gol paling saspen

2006-06-27T21:21:00.000+08:00

Italy vs Australia:

Totti, it is!

World Cup Germany 2006: Gol paling cantik

2006-06-27T00:37:00.000+08:00

England vs Ecuador:

*Ignore the 'bahasa Jerman' commentary though, heh

Lazy Sunday...

2006-06-25T19:11:00.000+08:00

Disturbed.

2006-06-25T16:53:00.000+08:00

I know. I shouldn't be feeling this way. I don't know. Guess that i'm not over it. Like i thought i did.

But seeing his photo. And the new one is his life. It struck something in me. Like a Pandora's box. It opened. Letting out all the hurt, cheat and lies when we were together. One by one. Like a movie; it plays. Ripping my heart out. It feels like a knife went through my heart. Like it did before. All those old feelings came back to haunt me. Once again.

I know. I should not feel this way. I got him. I got his ring on my finger. And i could hear the bells ringing louder and louder. But still...

I keep asking myself what have i done to deserve that? He changed my life. Everything that i believe in. My beliefs and principals went down the drain when i was with him. Together with my self-confidence. And lots more.

And i never really got them back. I had to start from square one once again. Putting together the broken pieces were never easy. It was a slow, painful process. And it affect those people around me. They saw a different me now. Someone new. Someone's who was broken and hurt inside.

I have to get over this. Like she said. But give me more time, will you? I will get over this. Like i get over everything else. Insyallah...

*Note: This proves that internet world isn't so big either. He found me on friendster!

Letter To Angel

2006-06-21T11:26:00.000+08:00

Today is the day. It's 21st June all over again. You would have been 2 today. Wish i could wish you a happy birthday, to kiss your cheeks. To feel you in my arms.

But i could never did. Will never would. You were lost. Gone. Forever.

Still, you remain a part of me. You have been a part of me. And will always be. I could never forget you, Angel. It had been such a short time. But i have loved you. You knew that, don't you?

You would have been 2 today. If you were a girl, you would have been a pretty little girl. And if you were a boy, you would have been the charming little boy. Would you have had dark brown eyes; just like mine? Or would you have had dark brown hair? Would your nose be as sharp as mine? You would have a beautiful smile, that's for sure. Cause you would and always will be my beauty little Angel.

I miss you, Angel. So much. 2 years have past and i'm moving on. I never talked about you that much anymore. But it's not because i have forgotten you. But it's because, even thinking about you hurts. It hurts so much sometimes.

I could imagine. At 2 now, you would have been babbling away. With those baby talk of yours. You would smiled and laugh with me. You would hold my hands tight when you walked that little steps. You would hold me tight, holding my fingers in your little hands. You would have looked at me with your dark, brown eyes. Your eyes would twinkle and shine. You would have been my loveliest Angel.

But it was never meant to be. I had to let you go. Even if i never wanted to. Even if my heart break into million pieces. I wanted you to be in my hands. To feel your warmth against my skin. To listen to your breathe in my ears. But i never could. Not then. Not now too. But i love you all the same.

Angel, i will always remember you. You would have been mine, the sweetest one. Even now when you were gone, you are always here. With me. In my heart, in my every breath. In my heartbeat. In my steps. You will always be with me.

I love you, Angel.

Happy Birthday, dear...May you be the sweetest Angel in that special place.

Al-Fatihah.

Your Daughter

2006-06-19T12:20:00.000+08:00

Maybe my father isn't like yours. Nor you. Maybe we aren't that close. But nevertheless, he's still the father.

So not too late maybe, to wish A Happy Father's Day.

May you be strong and healthy always. Insyallah.

World Cup Germany 2006: Gol paling cool

2006-06-19T12:00:00.000+08:00

Brazil vs Australia:

Jeritan Jiwa: Sahabat

2006-06-19T11:03:00.000+08:00

World Cup Germany 2006 : Match paling drama

2006-06-18T15:51:00.000+08:00

Italy vs USA:

22' : Gilardino score for Italy with a header

27' : Zaccardo scored his own goal when he tried to clear Reyna's (USA) free-kick *darn,darn, darn!*

28' : Italy's De Rossi was sent off for elbowing (*it looks unintenionally*) Brian McBride (USA)

42' : Mastroeni from USA was given the red card for lunging foul on Pirlo (Italy)

47' : The 3rd red card for USA when Pope was sent off.

Conclusion: Italy draw 1-1 with USA.

What a bummer, 9 orang pun tak boleh makan? Adehh, hampeh gue!

Source

Pujuk.

2006-06-16T17:58:00.000+08:00

SMS,21:03, 15/06/06:

Kalau boleh...

Saya nak pos semua rindu saya kat awak...

Tapi tak boleh...

Sebab posmen kata...

Rindu saya BESAR sangat!!

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*grin*

World Cup Germany 2006 : Player paling frust

2006-06-16T04:32:00.000+08:00

That's how Frank Lampard must have felt during the match against Trinidad & Tobago. He tried as he might; he might have more than 7 tries to put England ahead of Trinidad & Tobago. But no can do. All his tries were either being save by the goalie or it just went either way.

Thanks to Beck's cross at 83 mins for Crouch to make it 1-0. And Gerrard's score at 92 mins just secure the victory for England.

A sigh of relief there, heh. Rasa rugi kalau tengok bola tapi takde goal. Both sides play good soccer but maybe luck is just on England side?

Yang penting takde own goal this time, huhu!

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Apahal?!

2006-06-14T14:46:00.000+08:00

Read this:

Siaran Piala Dunia melalui RTM untuk penonton Malaysia sahaja

Oleh S. ANAND KUMAR

KUALA LUMPUR 13 Jun - Maaf ya peminat Piala Dunia dari Singapura! Siaran percuma perlawanan bola sepak melalui TV1 dan TV2 itu hanya untuk orang di Malaysia sahaja.

Itu adalah syarat yang terkandung dalam perjanjian stesen televisyen tempatan dengan Persekutuan Bolasepak Antarabangsa (FIFA).

Peminat bola sepak di Singapura semalam melahirkan kekecewaan kerana tidak dapat menonton temasya bola sepak itu melalui televisyen Malaysia kerana menerima gambar seperti `hujan' dan visual bergetar di skrin mereka.

Ketua Pengarah RTM, Datuk Abdul Rahman Hamid berkata, untuk memastikan syarat FIFA dipatuhi, RTM terpaksa mengubahsuai sistem pemancarnya bagi memastikan siaran itu tidak diperoleh oleh negara jiran.

``Kerajaan berbelanja banyak, maka kita mendapat hak penyiaran. Kalau peminat bola sepak Singapura mahu menonton secara langsung mereka juga perlu berbelanja, jangan hanya mahu tumpang sahaja.

‘‘Kita (RTM) perlu menghormati syarat FIFA. Jadi sehingga tamat perlawanan Piala Dunia kami terpaksa mengubahsuai sistem pemancar kami.

‘‘Soal sama ada siaran RTM boleh diterima di negara jiran atau tidak, itu bukan menjadi masalah kepada negara (Malaysia),” katanya kepada Utusan Malaysia hari ini.

Beliau berkata demikian sebagai mengulas laporan Bernama semalam yang memetik kekecewaan peminat bola sepak di republik itu yang kecewa tidak dapat menyaksikan siaran percuma itu.

Kata laporan itu, siaran RTM di Singapura bermasalah sejak bermulanya Piala Dunia pada Sabtu lalu.

StarHub, yang menyiarkan siaran RTM 1 secara percuma melalui rangkaian kabelnya di Singapura berkata, gangguan siaran itu berpunca daripada pihak penyiar di Malaysia.

Laporan media di republik itu turut menyebut bahawa RTM sengaja melaraskan sumber satelitnya supaya hanya penonton di Malaysia dapat menerima siaran perlawanan Piala Dunia melalui RTM1.

Mengulas lanjut, Abdul Rahman berkata, kerajaan membelanjakan RM11.5 juta untuk mendapatkan hak penyiaran secara langsung 47 perlawanan Piala Dunia.

‘‘Saya merasakan dalam perkara ini, adalah tidak logik sekiranya republik itu mempersalahkan RTM kerana siaran tidak jelas,” katanya.

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Read my email to Utusan in respond to above article:

Tuan/Puan yang di hormati,

Sila rujuk artikel di atas di sini yang di siarkan pada 13hb Jun.

Saya sebagai rakyat Spura berasa terkilan dengan artikel ini. Mungkin saya faham tentang kos yang terlibat untuk menayangkan perlawanan-perlawanan Piala Dunia 2006. Dan mungkin juga sebahagian dari rakyat Spura yang tidak mendaftar untuk untuk kabel Starhub telah menumpang siaran dari RTM untuk menonton perlawanan-perlawanan itu.

Tapi perlukah kata-kata kasar seperti di bawah di lontarkan kepada kami;

"Kalau peminat bola sepak Singapura mahu menonton secara langsung mereka juga perlu berbelanja, jangan hanya mahu tumpang sahaja".

''Soal sama ada siaran RTM boleh diterima di negara jiran atau tidak, itu bukan menjadi masalah kepada negara (Malaysia)," katanya kepada Utusan Malaysia hari ini.

Dan ini datangnya dari ketua pengarah RTM, Datuk Abdul Rahman Hamid. Seseorang yang berpangkat, yang mungkin di hormati dan di sanjungi.

Perkataan-perkataan begini tidak harus di lontarkan dan di siarkan sebagai bacaan orang ramai.

Rakyat Spura akan faham kalau itu sudah satu perjanjian dan syarat bersama FIFA. Dan satu penjelasan ringkas juga mungkin sudah memadai. Tak perlu berkata kasar seperti itu. Bukankah rakyat Malaysia di sanjung kerana budi pekertinya?

Dan merujuk kepada perenggan ini pula;

Laporan media di republik itu turut menyebut bahawa RTM sengaja melaraskan sumber satelitnya supaya hanya penonton di Malaysia dapat menerima siaran perlawanan Piala Dunia melalui RTM1.

''Saya merasakan dalam perkara ini, adalah tidak logik sekiranya republik itu mempersalahkan RTM kerana siaran tidak jelas," katanya.

Pada pandangan saya laporan media itu tidak menyalahkan RTM tapi hanya memperjelaskan keadaan bahawa masalah siaran berpunca dari RTM bukan dari pihak Starhub. Dan bukankah itu juga tindakan yang sedang RTM ambil?

Mungkin selepas ini, artikel ini patut saya sebarkan untuk menegah rakyat Spura dari menonton siaran perlawanan-perlawanan Piala Dunia kerana seperti di nyatakan dalam artikel ini - siaran Piala Dunia hanya untuk penonton Malaysia sahaja. Sebaiknya mereka harus sahaja beralih kepada siaran secara langsung kesemua perlawanan di saluran SCTV (siaran tv indonesia) yang menyiarkan semua perlawanan Piala Dunia dan tidak ada tohmahan-tohmahan seperti ini.

Saya harap pada masa akan datang,perkara-perkara ini tidak perlu ada atau di siarkan untuk bacaan orang ramai. Kita sebagai negara berjiran seharusnya lebih memahami antara satu sama lain. Tak perlu kata-kata yang mungkin akan mengeruhkan dan merumitkan keadaan.

Saya menulis ini sekadar menzahirkan rasa ketidak-puasan saya dan bukan untuk menjatuhkan mana-mana pihak.

Terima kasih atas perhatian anda.

Terima kasih.

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Not that my email will see the light off the day but at least i do my part. I voiced out my unhappiness over this article.

I'm sure swearing off RTM; at least for the World Cup 2006. Harsh words, indeed.

Heh.

Tomorrow.

2006-06-14T12:39:00.000+08:00

And I wanna believe you,
When you tell me that it'll be ok,
Ya I try to believe you,
But I don't

When you say that it's gonna be,
It always turns out to be a different way,
I try to believe you,
Not today, today, today, today, today...

I don't know how I'll feel,
tomorrow, tomorrow,
I don't know what to say,
tomorrow, tomorrow
Is a different day

It's always been up to you,
It's turning around,
It's up to me,
I'm gonna do what I have to do,
just don't

Gimme a little time,
Leave me alone a little while,
Maybe it's not too late,
not today, today, today, today, today...

I don't know how I'll feel,
tomorrow, tomorrow,
I don't know what to say,
tomorrow, tomorrow
Is a different day

Hey yeah yeah, hey yeah yeah, and I know I'm not ready,
Hey yeah yeah, hey yeah yeah, maybe tomorrow

Hey yeah yeah, hey yeah yeah, and I know I'm not ready,
Hey yeah yeah, hey yeah yeah, maybe tomorrow

And I wanna believe you,
When you tell me that it'll be ok,
Yeah I try to believe you,
Not today, today, today, today, today...

Tomorrow it may change

Empty.

2006-06-14T12:32:00.000+08:00

Life seems so empty these days
All around me are just spaces,
and more spaces

Waking up has lost it's meaning too
seeing the sun couldn't make me smile anymore,
remembering you don't give me the flutter anymore
even the night came without peace no more

I'm standing at the edge,looking down
I could jump
and let the blackness engulf me

Or i could stay
and wait for the sun to shine
to make me smile again
to let me hope again

Feeling.

2006-06-14T12:22:00.000+08:00

Indifferent. That's how i feel these past 2 days.

It's like;

1)i don't care anymore.

2)nothing matters anymore.

3)couldn't care less.

4)i have given up fighting.

5)there's nothing more to wake up for. Or to even think about.

6)no dream will come true anymore.

7) and this is it. Nothing more, nothing less.

And this scare the shit out of me. I had felt this way before. And i know how things can go when i'm feeling this way. But deep down, i could feel that this is temporary. And it won't last long. That's what i keep telling myself at least.

For now, maybe i need to be on my own. Maybe it's those words. Or maybe i'm just giving up already. Or maybe...

Nothing matters anymore...?

*sigh*

Dysfunction

2006-06-12T17:21:00.000+08:00

Family Dysfunction:

1) It nearly brought tears to my eyes when her mom hug and kissed both my cheeks before our departure to Australia last year. I have never forget that. My mom never did that to us. Or me, at least.

2) It's always "tak masak sebab takda orang nak makan". When 'takde orang' here only means my brother is working on the night shift.

3) My 2nd brother never visit that much anymore. And more sad, my little niece is growing further and further away from us. Sad *sigh*

4) I get extra sensitive and all riled up when others start talking about how different their families are from mine. (taulah kita 'takda' famili, but you don't have state the obvious kan?, isk!)

5) Closeness among families always, always hurt me the most - we never sit down together and talk like that. Never...

**********

Those words hurt like hell lah. I know maybe i blow things out of proportion. But still it hurts. So much.

*sigh*

**********

This post is not about 'buka pekung sendiri' but i need to get it off my chest.

This certainly feel bad.

Hmm..

**********

Sometimes, i thought i have gotten over this family-thingy. But think i will never get over it lah. This will stay with me for a lifetime.

*sigh*

Funny...

2006-06-12T17:19:00.000+08:00

When the smallest things can hurt you the most, heh.

World and people works in mysterious ways eh?

*sigh*

Weirdo!

2006-06-12T15:35:00.000+08:00

You Are 80% Weird

You're more than quirky, you're downright strange.
But you're also strangely compelling, like a cult leader.

How Weird Are You?

From her.

4our

2006-06-12T13:52:00.000+08:00

Since it's the World Cup 2006 and this blogger had put up such an entry, i decided to continue it like a meme; a World Cup meme. So let's get the ball rolling! (ball, World Cup..get it? heh!)

At this time, four years ago:

1) I was 25 (now that seems very young, didn't it?)

2) I was stuck in a non-existant relationship. I was crushed and broken. But pretty much in denial.

3) I followed each and every matches. With my grandad (missed him this World Cup as he is no longer around)

4) We got half a day off when Brazil and England match were held on the same day (went to club to watch the matches, coolest!)

As it was four all around, i decided to keep it as 4. You can add on it if you like :)

This time round, i have missed 2-3 matches already. Maybe age is catching up.

Heh.

World Cup 2006 : Tonite.

2006-06-09T12:18:00.000+08:00

It's tonight! Let the games begin!

.....

2006-06-07T00:38:00.000+08:00

The harder i try to get out, the deeper i got suck in.

Whylah.

I'm getting sick of this.

060606

2006-06-06T11:21:00.000+08:00

Us
Originally uploaded by kiez-amy.

Happy Birthday kat AWAK. Moga panjang umur, murah rezki dan selalu happy.

Di kala dirimu tersenyum,
terhapuslah luka,
kerna engkaulah cahaya,
kasihmu membuat dunia jadi terbalik,
aturan menjadi tak bererti,
hukum dan hakikat menjadi satu

- E*uan,23:23,190406

Lucky.

2006-06-05T11:19:00.000+08:00

He sure is!

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BUKAN sekali tetapi tiga kali.

Itulah bilangan undangan yang diterima Encik Abdul Aziz Abu Talib, 56 tahun, untuk menyaksikan pertandingan bola sepak Piala Dunia secara percuma.

Esok, beliau akan berangkat ke Jerman dan menghabiskan kira-kira enam minggu menyaksikan semua perlawanan - daripada acara pembukaan Jumaat ini sehinggalah pertandingan akhir pada 9 Julai.

Semua tiket itu diberi seorang pegawai bola sepak Arab Saudi, Encik Abdullah Al-Jabal, yang dikenalinya sejak 1970-an.

Encik Abdullah merupakan anggota kehormat Persekutuan Persatuan Bola Sepak Antarabangsa (Fifa) dan juga Persekutuan Bola Sepak Arab Saudi (SAFF).

Tiket khas Fifa itu turut diberikan kepada dua anak Encik Abdul Aziz - Abdullah, 19 tahun, dan Faisal, 17 tahun.

Encik Abdullah, anggota Perkhidmatan Negara, dan Faisal, penuntut sebuah kolej di London, akan menemui bapa mereka di Jerman selepas menyelesaikan urusan masing-masing.

Encik Abdul Aziz, pemilik kilang percetakan di Johor, sebelum ini pernah menerima tajaan serupa oleh SAFF untuk menyaksikan Piala Dunia di Perancis dalam 1998 dan Jepun-Korea dalam 2002.

Beliau memberitahu Berita Harian, persahabatannya dengan Encik Abdullah terjalin sewaktu Encik Abdullah me ngiringi pasukan bola sepak Saudi ke Singapura bagi Piala Lion City pada 1979.

'Ketika itu saya berkhidmat sebagai pegawai perhubungan dalam Jawatankuasa Antarabangsa dan Acara Khas, Persatuan Bola Sepak Singapura (FAS).

'Saya bantu mengatur segala keperluan logistik mereka. Sejak itu, setiap kali pasukan itu datang ke Singapura, saya menjadi orang hubungan mereka,' katanya.

Dihubungi dalam panggilan jauh semalam, Encik Abdullah, 53 tahun, yang kini di Jerman untuk membuat persiapan bagi pasukan Arab Saudi, berkata:

'Aziz memang seorang teman rapat dan setia yang telah banyak membantu pasukan Arab Saudi. Jadi saya langsung tidak keberatan memberinya tiket-tiket itu, yang diberikan kepada saya oleh Fifa.'

Selain tiket, yang dianggarkan bernilai antara 200 dengan 600 euro ($400 hingga $1,200) setiap satu, kos pengangkutan darat dan penginapan di hotel lima bintang Hilton Frankfurt turut ditaja.

Encik Abdul Aziz hanya membayar kos tiket penerbangan sebanyak $4,500 untuk tiga orang.

'Saya anggap diri saya amat beruntung. Saya akan berasa lebih gembira jika pasukan yang saya minati, Brazil, menang Piala Dunia!' ujarnya.

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Everything paid for. Some people are just so lucky, heh.

Source: Berita Harian

More?

2006-06-03T13:00:00.000+08:00

This is a follow up to 4ord entry. So far the story goes like this:

It is a Friday - Me

My head is spinning - Ash

The weekend is coming - Gwendolyn Mat Piah

And..?

More comments needed, please *smile*

+1

2006-06-02T23:17:00.000+08:00

Bisakah yang terpadam dinyala
Bisakah yang terhina dicinta
Walau ku himpunkan sesalku
Bisakah terbuka kalbu

Bisakah yang benci disayangi
Bisakah yang dusta dimaafi
Walauku himpunkan sesalku
Bisakah terbuka kalbu

Bila senduku berlinang sayu
Dalam rindu ku tertanya

Bisakah yang benci disayangi
Bisakah hatiku difahami
Walauku himpunkan sesalku
Bisakah terbuka kalbu

- Bisakah, Siti Nurhaliza

4 + 1

2006-06-02T19:02:00.000+08:00

posts in 1 day, cayala!

Record-breaking betul, huhu..

Jumaat

2006-06-02T18:35:00.000+08:00

Dari pagi tadi, memang hati aku rasa tak best. Cuba ok kan jugak. Cuba pujuk hati, apa yang aku buat ni betul. Tak apa lah kalau susah-susah sikit sekarang.

Tapi bila makin cepat waktu tu berlalu, perasaan aku bertambah tak suka. Jengkel rasanya. Cari macam-macam alasan dalam diri sendiri. Cuma timbangkan buruk dan baiknya. Tapi lebih pada cari silap keputusan yang di buat sejak beberapa hari lalu. Makin nampak kekurangannya.

Call mak. Cakap dengan mak. Memang rasa lagi tepat lah apa yang rasanya nak buat sekarang ni. Pilihan aku beberapa hari lalu memang tak tepat.

Surf internet. Cari alternatif. Tanya kawan sorang tu. Hantar emel sana, sini. Rasa-rasanya boleh dapat yang lebih berbaloi dari sekarang kot. Insyallah.

Rasa-rasanya dah boleh fikir yang mana patut di buat. Baru rasa lega hati ni. Baru rasa senang sikit nak bernafas.

Mungkin memang betul apa yang aku rasa aku nak buat sekarang ni.

Alhamdulillah.

**********

Salah ke kalau buat macamtu? Sebab aku ada prinsip dan undang-undang aku sendiri. Walaupun mungkin tak menyenangkan satu pihak, tapi mungkin akan lebih memporak-peranda kan banyak pihak kalau fikir nak buat ikut kepala sendiri je. Salah ke kalau tak buat seperti yang orang lain nak kita buat. Sedangkan kita ada alasan dan sebab tersendiri. Yang dah pun bagitau. Kalau tak faham juga, tak taulah.

Rasa serba salah. I can't be anyone else. That's me. Memanglah nampak macam bodoh, macam lemah. Tapi..ntah, tak boleh nak paksa diri lagi. Dah sampai the line where i should limit myself already. That's so much that someone can do. Kan?

Rasa tak adil plak bila kena paksa2 macamnie. Cuba saya paksa awak, suka ke? Hmm...

Itu saya. Dan untuk masa sekarang; esok, lusa, bulan depan atau pun tahun depan belum tentu saya boleh berubah. Atau pun saya tak akan ubah sampai bila2. Macam ketagih rokok lah. Boleh berhenti ke kalau suruh jam2 tu jugak berhenti? Samalah kan?

Sedihlah bila orang tak faham. Tak tau apa motif buat camtu. Tak apalah kot, biar orang nak marah. Dia tak faham. Dia tak faham apa yang cuba aku buat. Aku ada tanggungjawab. Dan prinsip aku; kalau nak buat salah apa2 pun jangan sampai libatkan orang tua. Diaorang tanggungjawab aku. Buruk baik, diaorang tetap mak bapak aku.

Kau tak faham. Dan tak mungkin faham.

Inilah aku. Yang sebenarnya.

Yang 'tak boleh di harap', dia kata. *sigh*

**********

The Question Is

2006-06-02T16:33:00.000+08:00

Should I or should i not?

Which would you prefer;

1 arranging books on bookshelves, pushing book carts around

2 cashier position in a gas-pump station, handling cash/credit cards transactions. Which also involves lots of cards swiping (from a few diff terminals), stock checking and recons at the end of your shift.

To take into consideration;

Location 1) just across the building from where i work

Location 2) take a train, 3 station away + 5-10 mins walk. Journey back will include either 2 bus rides or 1 bus ride + 1 train ride 7 stations away.

Both have the same pay rate.

Cepat, i need to know before 6pm. Help me out here, will you?

//updated @ 6.07pm

Books vs Pump Station: 4 votes (2 Y!M) votes to nil. Books win hands-down. Heh.

I have submited my application. Let's just wait for that call, shall we? *keeping my fingers cross*

Thank YOU for the voters!

//

4ord

2006-06-02T13:27:00.000+08:00

This game goes like this. But this time, what you do is you post a comment containing only 4 WORDS in reply to the previous one. So it'll sound like a story as the comments goes by.

I shall begin, - It is a Friday.

Now you continue...

Astaga!

2006-06-02T12:42:00.000+08:00

1 Don't know where my previous template went to!

2 Feel like i kena conned for a few hundreds! Adeh!

3 End up having a misunderstanding with him. *sigh*

4 This certainly doesn't feels like Friday anymore. Shucks!

Rasanya semua orang ada satu red-tape/limit for themselves kan? Yang no matter how hard they try; they couldn't never get over it. The fear of it. Macam fear-factor lah, heh. And that's where i'm now. Dekat nak sampai limit tu. So don't push me any further lah or you'll break me. Tak ada orang faham, ingat suka2 ke ada limit2 macam tu. Isk!

It's brick all around..

2006-06-01T16:42:00.000+08:00

Kellie's Castle
Originally uploaded by kiez-amy.

Life certainly sucks when you need others to even just breathe. It's like nothing is certain anymore. If things turn out as promised, fine. But what if it's not? Not when you have already made other plans around that supposed plan.

It certainly suckslah! And i hate living this way!

p/s:Howlah to get positive with all these negative vibes going all around you? One moment, i could be all happy and light. The next, everything just bog me down.

*frown, frown, frown*

So done!

2006-06-01T12:53:00.000+08:00

Tukar template lagi, heh. The last one makes me all down and moody.

So..feels much, much better today. Semalam, rasa macam dah patah semangat. Nak give up. Feels like there's nothing to look forward to anymore. Things are going down the drain already. And I have not plan for a downfall, this way!

But today, things are looking up. At least, even if things are not going my way,at least they are moving. And hopefully, with whatever time i'm given now i managed to get it all together. Again. The way i want it to be.

I'm determined to make this happens. I want it to happen. And i'm certainly more than willing to give whatever i have.

Hari ni terbakar balik semangat yang hampir nak padam semalam. I will survived this. Like i always did.

Insyallah.

Excuse me for the bahasa rojak, heh.

World No Tobacco Day

2006-05-31T11:20:00.000+08:00

Note: I have nothing against smokers. But it's for your own good. So quit while you can yeah...

What do i do...

2006-05-29T11:56:00.000+08:00

When no amount of words could ever be enough,
When no action could really convey what i meant,
When no amount of hours and seconds is never enough...

What do i do,
to ease this ache in my heart,
to calm this feelings of mine,
to accept that we'll always be apart,
for now at least...

I don't want you to go,
i don't want this to end...

But knowing that i'll see you again,
keep me alive every moment and seconds...

Lump in my throat...

2006-05-24T16:56:00.001+08:00

Got a lump in my throat. Head feels heavy. Heart too.

I can't be like you. Can't be like you either.

That's why i'm told i smile at all the wrong places. Problems and hard times in life never gets to me. Well, maybe it did. But i never show the frowns, the worries and the tears that i cried. So now, i'm guilty for doing that? *sigh*

And YOU. Why do you have to pull me down everytime i get up? I have to learn to walk. On my own, on my own two feet. I can't be forever be here. So see what i see. See my dreams and wants. Don't hamper me down each and everytime.

All of sudden, things don't look too rosy anymore.

This is hard. *sigh*

Here we go!

2006-05-17T14:18:00.000+08:00

Picked it up from his. It looks interesting. And i'm kinda of addicted to it too. :D

But let's start a fresh one here. Well, if you have contributed there, we can do another one can we? *smile* So let's get those brain cells working:

Very easy. Just name a country/state which starts from the previous's last letter. Eg; Mauritius, Sudan, Nigeria so on and so forth.

I'll begin with: M A D A G A S C A R

Let's roll it!

Note: We'll see how far where can get this going!

Since moving on...

2006-05-17T13:13:00.000+08:00

It's a new place. With new people. New environment. New timings too (work doesn't start till 10.30am. When 'normal working people' were long due at work; when they are already thinking what to have for lunch. Heh!).

Yeah, it's been 2 weeks since i'm into this new job. It's a slow start. And the day feels longer too with my working hours ending only at 7.30pm (when 'normal working people' were having their dinner already, huhu...) But i have worked out a way of overcoming the long days; have a late lunch which might start at 2 or 3pm. Then be back at work an hour later. Which will make the hours after lunch shorter, no? Well, at least it works for me.

Like i said before, it's a slow start. And coming into this job with a new environment (private), it's big change for me. As the company is still new here, we are starting from scratch. Everything have to be arranged right from the start. And this new job is a 'thinking' job for me. Lots of reading. Lots of thinking. My reads include policies, agreements, queries. Thinking part will be making sense out of it all! Which will then lead to explaining and presentation at the weekly company meetings.

It's been a while since i got this little brain of mine (heh!) to work; to think alot. Not like previously, when everything is like pressing the button and you got everything moving. No thinking, no explaining and no understanding needed. Everything works on a roll. You just got to understand how it all works at the start and after that you just go with the flow (which after a while makes you brain-dead!).

Working here too had made me ditch my working attire then - the corporate look; high heels, casual office wear, handbag. With this new relaxed working environment, i'm back to my old self - sandals, casual wear (read: shirts,cargo pants) It just doesn't right to dress up (including the boss) in this kind of enviroment when the other staff didn't seem to dress up either. So why bother?

So guess, this new job seems fine. At least for now. Hope it remain good for a long while till maybe i decide to move again (or maybe not). Who knows...

PadaMu...

2006-05-15T23:03:00.000+08:00

Aku berserah padaMu. Apa jua dugaan yang datang pada ku, pada kami; merupakan dugaan dariMu. Menguji kami sebagai hambaMu.

Aku sedar aku mungkin bukan hambaMu yang terbaik. Namun aku yakin dan percaya, apa jua dugaan yang Kau berikan pada kami punya jalan penyelesaiannya. Yang akan lagi menguatkan keimanan kami padaMu.

Seperti sekarang, aku sekali lagi menemui jalan buntu. Namun aku masih tabah dan tenang. Kerana ku tau, aku punya Kamu untuk membimbing ku.

Ya Allah, aku berserah padaMu. Kau ringankanlah bebanan kami. Kau permudahkanlah urusan kami. Kau murahkanlah rezki kami. Kau lindungi lah kami.

Hanya padaMu aku memohon...